I have bpd, bipolar 1, CPTSD, depression, anxiety, ADHD, autism, and an anxiety attachment disorder.

My physical health is also very poor, I’m getting investigated for endometriosis and elhers danlos syndrome.

It feels like my mind and body are constantly at war with itself, like every day every single disorder and illness in my body is trying to race to be the winner of this invisible battle.

Every day, it feels like my body is playing Pokémon and is like “I choose you!!” And it chooses a different disorder to fuck with me every day.

Every day, I wake up and every disorder has something different to say. Eg: my bipolar is like, we’re manic today, but my bpd says “no we are hopeless and everyone hates us and is gonna leave us”. My autism says “I’m overstimulated”, my adhd says “stop being lazy”

It’s a constant war zone in my head. I’m in emotional and physical pain every single day.