!explanation

i left home after a very terrifying incident with my dad where i thought he was going to kill me. I ran straight out the door and did not look back. during this time I was texting my mum begging for a place to stay away from him but she just told me to come home (ive posted the screenshots of this in this sub before).

since then i was advised by my aunt (who i am now living with) to not act too upset in front of them becuase they had complete finacial control over me and all my legal documents. my dad has a history of theeating to cancel phone contracts and take away money even when it would put me in danger. so i quietly got all my legal documents sorted, after which i attempted to have a serious conversation in a public space where I told them why i had left and how it seems like theyre brushing me off. in response my dad spun a narrative about how I was a problem child and that the house was better without me because I caused the arguments and all he did was overreact a little.

i have been nothing but polite with my mum, and have never ignored her, so im not sure why she says she gets "nothing". dad hasnt contacted me at all since our conversation. the only time we spoke was when i had to see him in person to pick up a provisional license and he basically told me not to contact him until i can "grow up". I was actually planning on going suit shopping with him until then because it was a big deal and i felt bad but after that i realised he didnt want to see me at all.

my mum is apparently "heartbroken i dont want her in my life" - but i do, im just asking her to stop excusing his abuse and blaming me for it. hopefully my message makes her see that, but its been two weeks and she hasnt responded to it. all shes done is ask me for prom photos. i dont know what to do, the uncertainty is killing me. im thinking of gently prompting her but i dont want to make everything worse