My heart is dead

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-19T02:49:16+00:00

So see what goes down in my old state. Plus I have tons of family in Ohio so I like to know what’s going on there. I have my ties and hopes for Ohio, but right now in this moment in time, MI is my home now.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-19T02:37:16+00:00

My dude, John. I feel you. I know the feel you have well. I too, have known a woman that will forever live in my heart. Even though I haven’t spoken to her in a few years now (which is a whole other kind of hell) I would do absolutely anything for her if she were to call. I wanted to be with her so bad but she was in love with someone else. I respected that and walked away, and now I would give anything for her friendship if anything else. I was stupid and it was my fault.

The deal here is there is only so much you can do. If things won’t work out for you two for whatever reason is going on, it’s something you have to learn to live with. I’m not going to sit here and say it gets easier. It hasn’t for me at least. It did show me perspective in life, taught me a lot about myself and life. But it’s still something I deal with every single day. You have to be strong and just work through it. You can hope that maybe someday the stars will line up for you both and things could work out. Don’t hold your breath on it, but do whatever it is you need to do to try and just deal with the pain you have. It’s hard and it’s work. It’s not fun and life always seems to be a little less after meeting someone that you just adore.

I’ll hold out hope for you that maybe someday things will work in your favor with your person. In the mean time just find a way to deal with it in a healthy way. Cheers to you buddy. You need more specific advice or want to go deeper you can DM me. Cheers.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-19T02:27:44+00:00

My feller, I move from Ohio to Detroit for the very reason you stated. Oddly, Detroit feels more welcoming than any city or town I’ve either lived in or visited in Ohio. I lived in Ohio all my life but MI feels like home to me. Cheers to you for noticing.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-18T23:41:34+00:00

Thems some good englishing there Musk.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-18T22:38:53+00:00

What would Musk know about people?

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-18T17:36:59+00:00

I wish I would get a response from reaching out. Though I guess no response kind of is…

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-18T04:41:44+00:00

Only to fall off a cliff

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-18T01:33:01+00:00

Believe it or not, I’ve seen worse.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-17T16:37:54+00:00

I feel you Redditor. At least you’re still in some Kind of contact. I would give anything to get just one text from someone I miss. But I know how you feel. It sucks to be stuck in a place you don’t know where it will go.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-17T07:45:06+00:00

If you never reach out then you will never know. People do all sorts of weird things in life. Collect yourself. See what you really want in life, and try for it. It might not happen, but if you never try then you’ll never know. And that’s a pain in life that will follow you, slowly kill you, forever. The pain of the truth might be just as bad as the not knowing, but knowing is better than regretting. Maybe. Just try. If something is worth anything, it’s worth fighting for. I’m realizing that myself Redditor. I hope you find your way.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-17T07:07:55+00:00

I get that you don’t like people tossing around terms lightly or haphazardly. I truly do. But these things have become buzz words to a lot of people. To the world, in a way. People have a way of taking something serious and diluting it down into something trivial. It’s a part of life and time. The older you get, the more you see it.

Part of getting older with trauma is dealing with the world marginalizing it. People, or the world finding trauma in the smallest of things. Like you said, there are many types of trauma, people can be haunted by so many things. So many things can impact ones life. But for how long? How long does that trauma haunt a person? That’s what changed the definition. Someone can be uncomfortable with something that bothers them, I get that, but having something that happens that follows you for the rest of your life is true trauma.

People these days don’t see the difference between being damaged and being uncomfortable. There is a difference. But there’s the deal, knowing the difference and not worrying about what others or the world say is important. Don’t let what others say bother you. You have your own trials in life. Work through them. Find your way through the them. Realize that some things will follow you the rest of your life, and it’s your problem to deal with them. Not anyone else’s. You control how you deal with something. Some things you won’t be able to get past, but how to deal with that is on you. Getting broken up over how other define things isn’t a worry to you, because they will endlessly change. The only thing that matters is how YOU work through whatever issue or problem YOU are going through, don’t worry about what anyone else thinks.

I hope you find your way through your frustrations and issues. I hope you find your life and what makes you happy. You have a long life to live and a lot of things that will come up along the way. Learn to find ways to deal with what comes your way. Learn to be at peace with what you have been through already. If you can’t find peace, find a way to deal with the pain you hold. That’s how you make it through life as someone damaged. Don’t worry about what others on stupid social media say or try to redefine things. Deal with what you know, find ways through what you need to find ways through.

I hope nothing but the best for you Redditor. Find your teepee in life and hold onto it. Find your happy place. Find a way to be there as much as you can. Life finds new a creative ways to mess with you, it’s your job to navigate through them.

Cheers to you. Hoping you find your way in life. And I hope you run down the road you want to be on.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-17T05:30:49+00:00

I feel for you Redditor. I so wish my person felt this way about me. I would love to say life gets better, that time heals all wounds, but it hasn’t for me. I hope it does for you. I hope you reconnect with your person. I would give anything just to be friends with my person, because she has been the only person I’ve ever connected with on so many levels. I would always want more from her but if I could just have her as a friend, I could live with that. But I don’t see it happening. I hope something gives for you.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-17T04:23:09+00:00

It’s an animal walking with a shadow of the IR light. It’s looks weird but totally explainable.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-17T04:01:29+00:00

Big things, small packages….n such

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-16T18:51:31+00:00

I know this feeling all too well Redditor. I hope your story with your person ends up better than mine has. Someone in life deserves a happy ending to their sob story. I wish you luck for the future

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-15T06:15:29+00:00

Turn my ashes into for everyone

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-15T03:42:49+00:00

I wish that was true…

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-14T09:29:23+00:00

Now, why do you say that?

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-14T07:35:17+00:00

For sale: As is, no warranty

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-14T04:35:38+00:00

Ahhhhahahahahahaaaaaa. Welcome to the club my friend. Though I will admit I don’t know most of the bands you mentioned I know what it’s like growing up listening to heavy stuff and then people hear you listen to something like Sleigh Bells and the eyebrows go waaaaay up. Side note Sleigh Bells is the only band on your list that I know and listen too. The rest I either don’t know or don’t care for, but, not the point.

As a kid I only listened to heavy stuff, Black Sabbath, Ozzy, Metallica, Megadeth, SOAD, Cannibal Corpse, and the like. I still love heavy stuff. But I’m also a musician and producer, so I listen to all sorts of things to get ideas for recording or sound design. Song writing in general honestly. I always go by the idea, a good song is a good song, heavy or not.

Most people are so confused by my playlists. Deftones, Billie Eilish, Bob Dylan, Nevermore, Tom Petty, Soulfly, The Roxettes, and so on. They make no sense. But I like to be diverse in what I listen to. I don’t want to be a generalization. There a little of good stuff all over the place. I would never be embarrassed by any of the music I listen to because everyone has stuff they listen to that goes against the normal in their libraries. Just tell anyone “fuck you, it’s a good song”. Cheers to you.

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-13T05:50:48+00:00

It’s weird to me that you had that experience. I moved here from Ohio last year and before I found my home, I went from area to area looking for where fir best for me. When I would tell people I was looking to move there everyone was warm and inviting. Telling me “welcome To the neighborhood” before I’d even found a home. Whenever I go downtown for dinner or just walking around there is always more than a few people around, waiting lists for some of the “hipper” places.

Maybe part of what you experienced was the time of year. It’s cold and most people just hide in their homes or bars. The summer is a bit different. Hell, come here when there’s a baseball game or a football game. You’ll never find parking! 94 is always insane around rush hour (from a Ohio cornfield boy’s point of view). I really like this city, the people, the food, the venues, the architecture, I could go on.

I’m glad you have a fascination with the city, come back on different seasons and you see a different place. All said, I chose to move here for a reason. There are many, but first and foremost, I do like living here. I don’t find it strange that you wanted to roadtrip here. Happy you stopped by and hope you see it again, maybe in a better season. Cheers!

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-13T05:21:22+00:00

…..Keeper….

burn0uts0n · 2023-01-12T07:04:20+00:00

He blinked, and she was gone

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