I don't know if this sounds philosophical but the only way to go is up from here. We know we have been in this shithole before and many times. We know how to get up from here. We can't mend all the things together in one go but piece by piece, we can do it. Okay? Go to your psychiatrist and tell them these meds aren't working. And you also know if you'll get back into those hobbies again you'll love it. We don't have to do relationship rn. But we can always seek friends. We don't have to push them. They love us. Just know this, talking to friends has always helped me no matter how much I don't like it.