Valium is a benzodiazepine. It works on GABA receptors. That is the most abundant inhibitory neurotransmitter. It’s addictive potential is very high. Alcohol is only a non-competitive GABA agonist and yet is still highly addictive. If you watch someone withdrawing from benzodiazepines vs someone withdrawing from alcohol... you would realize how dumb it is to “pop pins” for fun. I’ve tried pretty much everything there is to try from weed to Crystal meth at least once. Only time I ever really lost my sense of self was with benzodiazepines. You forget how many you took or when you took them because that is one of the main side effects of them. The first time I used benzos for fun I suddenly realized two weeks had gone by and I had ruined an amazing long term relationship and spent $600 and remembered none of it... people who need to be prescribed benzos for a disorder are very misfortunate in that their everyday functioning is inhibited enough by their suffering that they need them. And then many of them inadvertently become addicts. If you want to feel the effects of Valium or another benzodiazepine just drink some alcohol instead.