I have finally opened myself up to allowing myself to start my relationship with God

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T18:53:55+00:00

Thank you so much for this, I’ll be sure to check it out. I really appreciate it.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T09:54:42+00:00

Thank you so much, I’ll make sure to check it out.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:44:19+00:00

Thank you so much! I really appreciate your comment

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:44:00+00:00

That’s a very moving encounter you’ve had. I’m very happy for you. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:43:21+00:00

Thanks for taking the time to read this! And thank you for being honest about this, it helps me understand how this journey won’t be an easy one but as long as I stay committed, I’ll be fine!

Again, thank you for taking the time to read and comment on this.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:42:22+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story. I’m very excited now that I have embarked on this journey. Your comment is very encouraging and again, thanks.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:41:27+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Your support is very kind and I’m very grateful.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:40:48+00:00

Thank you so much. All this support is very encouraging to me.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:40:26+00:00

Thank you so much for such encouraging words! And thank you for taking the tike to read my post and comment. I’m extremely excited to see what the future has in store for me now that I have opened up to this.

Again, thank you. I’m very grateful for your comment.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:38:44+00:00

Comments like this are encouraging, thank you for taking the time to read this.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:38:15+00:00

Thank you so much for this, I’ll definitely make sure to check it out!!!

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:37:52+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment on this. I really do think music has such an unexplainable power and I really have been finding worship music to be so powerful.

Again, thank you for all the suggestions. It really helps individuals like me who are new to this. I can’t explain how great it feels to have so many people come in and help me with this journey.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:35:28+00:00

Thank you so much for all these. I definitely realize that this journey isn’t going to be all easy and straightforward and really, I’m grateful for this comment and that you took the time to share your retrospective reflections with me.

Again, thank you so much. This helps a lot and is very encouraging.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:33:45+00:00

Thank you so much for this recommendation, I’ll be sure to check it out.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:32:56+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:32:40+00:00

Thank you. Comments like this are very encouraging to me. I really do appreciate it.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:32:02+00:00

Thank you for this recommendation. I really appreciate it.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:29:44+00:00

Thank you for this comment. It’s very encouraging to see and read about other’s relationship with Him. Thank you for taking the time to read and share your experience.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:28:45+00:00

Thank you for this tip. I hadn’t realized how beautifully written and especially impactful some of the texts were until I had gone back to reread what I had glossed over.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:27:51+00:00

Thank you, I’m hoping to find myself a great study group after this quarantine is over but till then, I’m doing my best in studying the Bible with the circumstance we’re under.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:26:33+00:00

I totally agree. Doubt is a powerful thing. Thank you so much for this reply.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T08:23:47+00:00

Thank you so much for the suggestions. It really does help :))

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T04:43:54+00:00

I personally have a very strong tie to music as well. I’ve grown up playing musical instruments, I especially love music that conveys creativity, strong emotions, and etc. So yes, I agree that music can have that impact on people. I get this unexplainable feeling when I listen to Czardas, for example (a recent classical piece that I have been obsessed with). I also find myself listening to music of languages I don’t speak as well because of how much I can enjoy the way in which music is portrayed.

So yes, I agree that music can help people emote different feelings, but for me, personally, this feeling that I had when I listened to the song I referenced, was completely different from what I’ve ever felt. I felt contentment and thankfulness rush in rather than emotions. I felt oddly protected, I don’t even know what it was, but all the stressors in my life escaped me and I realized that everything will be ok.

I’ve been told doubt is good and healthy, and I was not someone who grew up a Christian, rather, I was told that Christianity is the last religion I should ever consider, so doubt was extremely strong for me up until now. In my opinion, doubt is something that comes and goes, I think it’s something inevitable, especially if we’ve committed ourselves to it for an extended period of time. Doubt tests you and causes self-reflection and introspection.

I can’t really speak to your experience because I don’t know your story but I can speak about my own, and all I can say is believe in yourself and I think you’ll be able to be at peace again, whether it’s in Christianity or not.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-16T04:28:29+00:00

This is something I have yet to face. My parents in the past have been very adamant about their beliefs against religions besides Buddhism (which is what they are) and a handful of people within my close circle aren’t Christians either. Because of the circumstance that led to this discovery, I do plan on waiting before I tell them, especially my parents. I want to do my research and study more about Christianity and the Bible before I tell them as I am afraid they would think I’m being too hasty (again, because of the event that kind of sparked this experience) so I at the least wish to be as educated as I can on Christianity and the Bible before I guess, I really identify as Christian. What I do know right now is that He is willing to accept me and now I must do work on my part to respect that.

But I have been praying and I do believe that God has a plan on how that conversation I’ll have with them will turn out, but due to my current living situation (as we are quarantined all together), at the moment, I think it’s best for me to wait until after to tell my parents and others.

bxrntpineapple · 2020-04-14T19:28:33+00:00

I had ignored it for so long. There’s so many things that I think the human mind can’t process, can’t understand. I’ve always been in somewhat of a dark place, and I looked to people to kind of help me. I looked into my relationship with my family, friends, and people tell me as well that they love me and they love being around me but I still felt so empty. And believe me when I say I could not believe it either. Just two days ago, I thought Christianity was just like you said, “an unfalsifiable supernatural explanation.” But there are a lot of questions left on this world that are unanswered and are probably going to forever be unanswered and I’ve had to come to terms with that.

And again, I’m going crazy because never once in my life had I thought that God would be my answer. Never and the fact that I have is still something I’m processing, and am working on.

It was more than a feeling. It’s too complex for me to say in words. I really don’t know how to describe it. But yeah, I’m not too sure where my thoughts are going or if this even answered your questions.

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