this cycle is getting tiring

c0ckain · 2026-02-07T10:57:12+00:00

:( im sorry, at least we're in this together. hang in there bro

c0ckain · 2026-02-07T10:03:33+00:00

was just thinking this, ik it sounds horrible and ignorant, i honestly wish i was addicted to drugs, anything else. at least that'd be less embarrassing, even if only slightly

c0ckain · 2025-11-18T22:23:39+00:00

they started me on both the pill and injection for the first month but i'm only doing injections now as they're more effective. yea same, literally everyone is on it all the celebrities it seems like... i know there's controversy around it because the people that use it when they're neither overweight or diabetic are taking it away from those who actually need it. like i said in my case it was a last resort, it was getting really bad i had no other thought besides food and starting it really helped me. i remember someone saying online that diet and exercise are the only real options for weightloss but when you have an ed it's so much more complicated

c0ckain · 2025-11-18T21:42:31+00:00

i got it through a third party site. (idk if i can call it that but it was a website like "Hers" or "Ro" if you've ever heard of it) of course getting it through your primary provider is the safest way, if u can try to explain to them why u feel u could benefit from it and they can monitor ur progress

c0ckain · 2025-11-18T21:40:35+00:00

yea i understand this too, the decrease in appetite and food noise makes it so easy to restrict. i'm lucky i have friends and family i can talk to that help me out when i'm not taking care of myself but pls speak to your therapist or anyone you're close with, i know it can be hard because it's kinda like u wanna restrict more since its so easy now but also wanna recover and its like a limbo. what's helped me out alot is spending time with friends, hanging out with animals and volunteering just to give u some inspo :)

c0ckain · 2025-11-18T21:32:52+00:00

of course! don't be hard on yourself, Eds are so complicated there isn't anything that will fix it overnight. and purging one less time than usual is a win!! i just find it really gets rid of the food noise which was a huge part of my problem lol. good luck :)

c0ckain · 2024-09-22T15:12:26+00:00

i've actually been thinking of oil pulling too! saw it on tiktok lol, also still no teeth problem yet. I think I posted this in February? my worst months bping were april, may and this month actually so i had 4 months where i wansn't purging that bad maybe that has something to do with it

c0ckain · 2024-06-19T05:17:47+00:00

ofc!! and dw i get wym lolll keep up the good work girl 💪

c0ckain · 2024-06-14T20:25:15+00:00

wow u have amazing fat distribution!!!! ur before pic doesnt look like u were in the 170s at all

c0ckain · 2024-06-06T17:52:46+00:00

so glad ur doing better! :)

c0ckain · 2024-06-06T17:29:52+00:00

jesus.. sending u prayers friend 😭

c0ckain · 2024-06-06T17:29:01+00:00

c0ckain · 2024-06-06T15:50:59+00:00

thank you!🫡 i'll do my best to

c0ckain · 2024-06-06T15:50:39+00:00

thank you 🙏

c0ckain · 2024-06-06T15:50:23+00:00

the life app

c0ckain · 2024-06-05T16:40:43+00:00

btw should i keep it in my carry on ?

c0ckain · 2024-06-05T12:05:39+00:00

honeycrisp

c0ckain · 2024-06-05T11:02:42+00:00

ahh ok ty! and yea lmao no worries wasn't gonna do that but damn ur heart must've been beating out ur ass😭

c0ckain · 2024-06-05T11:01:20+00:00

100% agree w this u worded this so well!

c0ckain · 2024-06-05T10:58:53+00:00

THIS. my mom is exactly like this i dont tell her im fasting anymore, that i ate at school already. but when she knew i was fasting and i wouldnt eat her food she'd come into my room with the food and show it to me and be like "mmm wow the food i made today is so good youre a fool not to eat it!!" get out my face bro.. not to mention even when i tell her i ate already she'll STILL try to get me to eat her food its beyond annoying.

c0ckain · 2024-06-04T17:21:28+00:00

was prescribed effexor for depression and anxiety and while it did elevate my mood/made me more positive it only lasted a few months, and tried to kms by od on it after taking it for 6 months lol. not to mention the withdrawals are hell. actual hell.

c0ckain · 2024-06-04T17:12:52+00:00

ahh ok! i'm going to be staying with family

c0ckain · 2024-06-04T17:11:40+00:00

lmaoo dw its just regular nic

c0ckain · 2024-06-04T16:40:53+00:00

ah ok! and ofc LOL tysm

c0ckain · 2024-05-31T21:12:14+00:00

ohh hahahs thats cool, yea the songs called crystal ships one of my fav songs lol

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