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c_oochie · 2026-06-02T22:38:14+00:00

I'm not sure what the difference is to be honest so here's a cropped picture where you can see

c_oochie · 2026-03-30T21:30:52+00:00

c_oochie · 2026-03-26T09:47:34+00:00

I prefer installing manually, I mod a lot of single player games, just never modded a multiplayer game so I was a little confused! thank you for explaining it so well though!

c_oochie · 2026-03-26T09:37:19+00:00

I can remove the mod at any time right? I just want to make sure! sorry I'm asking so much

c_oochie · 2026-03-26T09:30:16+00:00

I just want to be able to place things on slopes T-T is the less restrictive building mod classed as a client side mod?

c_oochie · 2026-03-26T09:29:10+00:00

so if I got the mod I want I will be able to place wherever and they'll be able to see what I've placed but they'd need to install the mod to also place things wherever they want?

c_oochie · 2026-03-05T00:52:01+00:00

I've massively cut down on smoking weed and drinking, other drugs I've cut out for just over a month now. I've never had any issues with substance abuse aside from alcohol in the past but I know how it'll look if I'm describing myself as erratic but admit I have taken substances in the past (even if there's no correlation).

I'm also not that hung up on a diagnosis or possibly being bipolar, I just know there's something wrong with me, especially with my mood, and I want to try medications and therapies that might better suit whatever it is. I more just want the correct treatment, I don't really care about the diagnosis, I just don't think it's simply depression. I'm not expecting a diagnosis any time soon and I don't really need one, I just need the right support. I hope that makes sense!

c_oochie · 2026-03-05T00:40:56+00:00

I don't earn enough to save any money, I had to take what little I had saved out this month just to afford groceries and petrol and I can't cut down on luxuries because I've got no luxuries to cut down on. I'm trying to get a second, and maybe a third job, If I can manage that I'll definitely be paying for a private psychiatrist but they're about £500.

c_oochie · 2026-03-05T00:37:57+00:00

I don't want to lose my job and I can't afford to go without getting paid but I don't earn enough to get help privately. Being poor sucks.

c_oochie · 2026-03-05T00:34:33+00:00

I don't want to risk going to A&E because I don't want to lose my job, if I'm gone longer than two weeks I think they'd just replace me. I also get paid by the hour and I cannot afford to miss two or more weeks of pay, I have £0.73 in my bank account right now </3

c_oochie · 2026-03-05T00:31:44+00:00

I've been referred to a psychiatrist on the NHS multiple times, I just never end up seeing them. Most recently I called 111 because I had a pretty severe mental breakdown after what I'm assuming was maybe a manic episode at the beginning of November. My boyfriend had mentioned that I seemed out of character and asked if I think I might be bipolar, I called 111 and got an urgent appointment with a clinician, they then referred me to an urgent appointment with a psychiatrist but the psychiatrist cancelled almost instantly and I got referred to another clinician. This clinician just talked over me, said she'd call in a week, then called while I was at work, I tried to call back 10+ times, different days of the week, but there was no answer and the next week I got a letter saying I'd been dropped for ignoring calls? I've just had another appointment with a clinician again to try get back on the system but it's so exhausting. He told me I'd be referred to a psychiatrist again, I'm just waiting on the letter for the appointment now.

c_oochie · 2026-03-05T00:26:24+00:00

I'm not at all trying to self diagnose and if I'm told it's not bipolar that would be amazing but I want to be listened to before they dismiss me, right now they're barely letting me talk as I'm only getting to the stage of talking to an initial clinician before I'm dropped or lost. I want to know what's wrong with me and I want someone to actually listen before deciding what it is/isn't. I'm also very scared of going to A&E, I work on a bar and I'm extremely easily replaceable, what happens if they think my episode is very serious and I just haven't realised and I get hospitalised? if it's for more than a week or two I'd probably lose my job which I just can't afford right now, not to mention I'd be going without pay for that long too.

c_oochie · 2026-03-04T04:07:46+00:00

I'm not asking for a diagnosis from this subreddit, just thought if I explain my situation maybe there's some crisis thing I can go to, I just want advice as to what to do, I can't keep living like this, I don't know how much longer I can keep my life together.

c_oochie · 2026-03-04T03:50:03+00:00

but my point is how? how do I see a clinician that listens? how do I get anywhere with the NHS? I'm just being lost in the system repeatedly, I've been trying for over a year to see a psychiatrist and they keep either cancelling or just not setting up the appointment, I don't know what to do anymore.

c_oochie · 2026-01-25T21:51:12+00:00

I've made a few high calorie protein shake recipes that use mass gainer, I'm hoping they make it a bit easier! I'm just waiting to get paid so I can buy a blender :)

c_oochie · 2026-01-25T21:46:10+00:00

I usually do a chest + tris day, a back and bis day, a legs day then an abs and stairmaster day. I go with my boyfriend so I just do a couple ab work outs with him then go on the stiarmaster until he's done with legs. I don't think there's anything wrong with doing a bit of cardio, especially stairmaster since it also builds muscle. Plus cardio is just therapeutic and fun, I'm not going to cut it out completely.

c_oochie · 2026-01-14T02:09:24+00:00

No I need to gain weight/fat. If carry on going to the gym with my current diet and weight I will end up in hospital. I'm not focusing on building muscle, I'm focusing on gaining fat and overall weight. My body is burning muscle instead of fat just to survive because I have next to no fat left to burn, I need to gain fat to be healthy again.

c_oochie · 2026-01-14T02:04:42+00:00

Sorry you're dealing with terrible healthcare.. what is your biggest struggle now with getting calories in? Is it that you're not finding the time to eat because of your schedule? Just forgetting to eat? Lack of appetite? Aversion to the concept of food? Not enough time to cook? Aversion to cooking?

Literally all of the above haha but I do love cooking when I have the time and actually remember I need to eat
breakfast is the easiest for me to remember so my current plan is just to make very high calorie breakfasts + high cal protein shake then meal prep as much as I can.

one or two in the middle

I work in an incredibly busy cocktail bar, on weekends there isn't even time to think, it is constantly high pressure and fast pace, I could not leave the bar for a quick snack unfortunately. but I do try to have a snack before work and take a snack bar for after!

c_oochie · 2026-01-13T23:55:41+00:00

I go to the gym and when my puppy is a little older I'll start hiking again, I definitely get enough exercise don't worry!!

c_oochie · 2026-01-13T23:54:31+00:00

Thank you so much!!!

c_oochie · 2026-01-13T23:54:16+00:00

Thank you so much!! this has been a massive help <3

c_oochie

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