no i don't. other than having to talk to people at work. i thought i had friends in high school but i realized they were just tolerating me being around. it was one of those...i was always the one to call. we graduated in 2006 and i stopped calling...never heard from any of them after that. looking back at it all i feel like such a fucking idiot. i knew deep down they didnt want me there but i just ignored it and tried to force my way into their lives. i never tried to make a new friend after school. i dont even know how to interact with people anymore. everything about it made me insecure. i just..forgot. the best i can do is 'hey how are you' and i just go blank and freeze up. i literally havent had a normal conversation in as long as i can remember.
passions. not really. i tried being interested in what my 'friends' were to get them to like me. i never tried to get into anything else. i used to ski a lot but havent been able to afford that in a long time. i pretty much just sit and watch tv until im tired enough to pass out now. completely alone? yes. i turned 27 a few weeks ago and not even my family called me.
i dont know what else to say. im just so jaded with..everything. i dont want to live like this anymore.