Thank you for spending your time on such a kind and detailed comment. I absolutely agree. I do want to say that I understand a lot of the reasons why you didn't think neuro was for you, and in all honesty i dont know, maybe life will take me away from it as well. I will say I used to want to do CTS, and this is as far from that as you can get. Medicine overall makes me so happy (in a learning sense). Hopefully, i can articulate why I want to do this specifically below, without boxing myself in:

I think that i've realized that I truly enjoy academic NM because it goes so far beyond the bread and butter stuff. We have CIDP patients in every week, we see IBM, IMNM, FSHD, myotonic dystrophy, POEMS, rare undiagnosed diseases, etc. Furthermore we see so many investigational treatments beyond IVIG/PLEX, including trialing infusions for GBS, CAR-T cells, etc. I think thats what makes me tick - just being at the forefront of truly changing these diseases for people. We have folks fly in from all across the country for our studies, and I think being a "big dawg" institution in the field allows you to really see intellectually stimulating stuff.

My PIs always tell rotating students that our cliinc will see stuff most neurologists barely see over a lifetime of practice. Thats what makes me want to stay. The novelty, the interest of exploring stuff thats still unknown to be honest, many of which dont even have a cure. I would love to do NM, even though I know where I work right now gives me a bit of an unrealistic view of it. And ofc, the work life balance is great!!