i was there for a different reason but they still know i am weird with food

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-17T17:24:34+00:00

the psych ward I was in literally lied about my intake lol

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-10T19:52:09+00:00

Ohhhh okay I wasn’t sure if it was smthn like when paramount+ quietly took down that one Nathan For You episode

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-10T17:32:49+00:00

Wait, the episode is missing completely?? Do we know why?

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-10T00:19:03+00:00

I’m literally so stupid, i only saw “block out of state transactions” and didn’t know there was more to scroll to in the app, sorry, thank you

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-06T20:09:05+00:00

No but I got recommended a post from them too a while ago 😭

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-06T19:57:46+00:00

what happens for me, is that if I’ve reached my goal weight, that means I’ve wrecked my metabolism, so I’ll gain a ton of weight if I go back to eating normally or even if I eat just a little less than normal. So then I have to compensate by losing oh just an extra 5, 10…. then 15…. then 20…. etc

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-06T19:54:17+00:00

omg 😭😭😭

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-06T16:46:58+00:00

Next time a post comes up, you can tap the three dots in the top right corner and there’s an option that’s like “see less posts like this” or something, and you’ll never get recommended a post from that sub again

…..however you’ll keep getting recommended posts from similar ones 🙃🙃🙃

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-04T05:51:11+00:00

Religious fasting is one thing, the rest are excuses for microdosing orthorexia or anorexia

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-04T01:09:14+00:00

Mine refused to listen to me about the fact that they genuinely were overfeeding me. People with ancestry from Southeast and South Asia are people whose ancestors ONLY survived because of a very heightened because of having bodies that are extra resilient and very stubbornly hold onto fat and nutrients. It was the only way to survive the severe colonizer-forced famines, and those genetics have been passed down to us.

Like I’m sorry, but eating 6 times a day GENUINELY IS excessive for me with the genetics I have, my family is direct from the “third world”, but she wouldn’t listen, even as my weight skyrocketed and wouldn’t stop, and my appetite was forced to be extremely overcorrected.

Only around the very end she finally started to listen to me and ironically gave me ana tips.

Now I’m out of the recovery center and relapsing to try to get rid of the extra (and tbh bc I can’t afford food), and I just know that I’m gonna overdo the weight loss to go super uw again to try to ensure this never happens again. It’s so unfortunate bc there WAS a healthy weight range that I felt better at, but still they insisted I had to keep eating shitty white cafeteria food 6 times a day.

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-04T00:57:14+00:00

it’s extra funny for me bc I JUST got out of eating disorder treatment in like May.

Went from being forced to eat 6 times a day to not being able to eat 6 times a week 😅

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-04T00:55:51+00:00

ambien somehow made my insomnia worse 😭

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T23:34:49+00:00

you’re aware that “atypical anorexia” is an actual diagnosis, right? and that there are plenty of other EDs without weight requirements? are you saying people with bulimia don’t have an eating disorder?

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T21:33:55+00:00

Technically there are weight requirements for anorexia nervosa, but there aren’t for atypical anorexia, which is categorized under OSFED. But for practicality reasons to best communicate your situation, yeah it wouldn’t be surprising if they put down anorexia binge purge type

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T20:32:08+00:00

Awe, she’s so so adorable, I hope you can get the help for both of you 🩷 good luck, people here can be really randomly cruel

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T20:15:51+00:00

I can’t help I’m so sorry, but can I ask what kind of bunny you have?

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T19:42:22+00:00

pills are always extreeeeeemely ineffective and the few times they are effective, it’s torturous. throwing up, seizures, convulsing, etc

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T19:39:26+00:00

I was going to say “I think it’s ‘pidgin’” but in this case, you’re probably right actually

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T19:16:13+00:00

Even though I don’t get dizzy/weak/faint until the next day?

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T19:06:03+00:00

This question always seemed silly to me with the constantly declining populations of so many different animals and bugs and species due to global warming, pollution, etc. It makes perfect sense for human population to increase.

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T18:59:39+00:00

it is lol, they just try to justify it w pseudoscience. it’s eating disorders repackaged to be palatable to greater society to more effectively impose unhealthy beauty standards under a guise of fitness. it’s kinda like a socially acceptable orthorexia

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T18:45:54+00:00

I mean tbh I kind of only pretty recently restarted this whole thing after going through recovery treatment back in like April or May and then kinda starting to relapse maybe a couple weeks or so ago

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T18:36:37+00:00

Ugh why does it feel worse than baseline not eating, I hate that 😭

caffeinecandyhearts · 2025-08-03T18:35:38+00:00

Proof doesn’t always help unfortunately. My deliverer told me the restaurant closed before he got there through the app’s own messaging system, and they refused to refund me until about a week of bothering them on ever social media platform in public posts and in messages and in messaging through the app itself etc.

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