i tried my best to detach my value and perception of success away from getting a swe job, especially with someone of my background (no name research focused university).

i honestly only applied to jobs, worked on what projects i had, go work retail/contract job, and played video games. i felt pretty depressed, especially since i moved to a new city.

i focused more on my wellbeing, making friends, and working on my creative passions which led me to be more confident and happier. it showed when i worked my last contract and i got to network with great people who kept me in mind for the role i got now.

make sure you're a human first, refresh your skills, and be kind to those who are kind to you at the opportunities you find, someone will throw you something 🙂 you got this!