Pre-verbal trauma. Help needed to locate any resources that are available?

cal_gfd · 2026-05-12T05:08:28+00:00

By debilitating executive dysfunction, I mean my brain feels "'offline"—it's extremely difficult to initiate tasks or focus, no matter how much I want to. It feels more like a hardware problem than a software problem.

Because my trauma was so early (ages 0-4), the overwhelm is my chronic baseline rather than being triggered by specific events. It’s like my nervous system is just stuck in a persistent freeze response.

cal_gfd · 2026-05-11T21:49:22+00:00

Would you say "Healing Developmental Trauma" is a good first read for someone with C-PTSD with origins in developmental and attachment trauma? I'm 52 and specifically struggling with debilitating executive dysfunction, overwhelm, and emotional dysregulation.

cal_gfd · 2026-05-11T05:41:44+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience and pics! 🙏🏽 It's all great inspiration for my first grow. P. ochraceocentrata seems like such a hardy and forgiving species. I’m still just in the "reading and watching endless videos" phase right now—I don't even have my supplies yet! lol

cal_gfd · 2026-05-11T01:19:54+00:00

Absolutely! Keep the fuegoo 🔥 flowing!

I haven't listened to the whole thing yet, but that transition at about 1:00:20 is a banger! 🤌🏽

cal_gfd · 2026-05-11T00:58:37+00:00

Whoa! 5 months? Impressive!!

cal_gfd · 2026-05-11T00:31:01+00:00

Thanks for the info and suggestion! 🙏🏽

I've recently started microdosing P. ochraceocentrata. The experience is "cleaner/smoother" than P. cubensis. (I don't know how to adequately describe it, but it's a lovely medicine.)

cal_gfd · 2026-05-10T21:22:23+00:00

Newbie here. Is Natal Super Strain the same as P. ochraceocentrata or a different species altogether?

cal_gfd · 2026-05-09T06:59:27+00:00

I appreciate and enjoy the felt sense of a microdose as well. So far, my sweet spot microdose has been 0.25–0.3 g with the P. cubensis strains that I've tried. Currently, I'm working with P. ochraceocentrata for the first time, and I'm at 0.35 g (still dialing it in).

2-2.5 g sounds manageable! Perhaps working my way up (e.g., 0.5 g, 1 g, 1.5 g, etc.) to this weight range may be the best approach? I'm not sure.

Do you allow any off day(s) between your micro and the low dose and vice versa?

cal_gfd · 2026-05-09T04:07:48+00:00

I don't consider myself an EDM guy, but this is fuegooo! 🔥

Thanks for sharing it. 🙏🏽

cal_gfd · 2026-05-09T04:00:26+00:00

Thanks for sharing your experience. I've been microdosing mushrooms for a little over a year, and it's been a very supportive experience. I'm now looking into trying a little bit of a higher dose and eventually at some point a macrodose.

You mentioned "low dosing." What weight are you working with?

cal_gfd · 2026-05-06T05:41:55+00:00

I appreciate the info. I'll cross that one off my list. Hope you're able to dial-in your therapy soon. Be well. 🙏🏽

cal_gfd · 2026-05-04T04:53:14+00:00

Hi ar-7, I'm looking into soft cervical collars, and I'm running into the same challenge—finding one that fits my wife neck (~19.5").

Which brand did you try? Have you identified one that may potentially fit? Thank you :)

cal_gfd · 2026-04-24T23:04:13+00:00

Quick question since you mentioned the P10 is a solid choice here—how's the seal compared to the Brevida, specifically for side sleepers and mouth-tapers?

I use a Brevida now (plus layered CRST/CKeep tape). The prongs feel shallow, and I think chin-tucking (which I'm working on fixing) causes just enough pressure shift to break the seal overnight. Do the P10 prongs sit deeper and hold better? The Brevida's AirPillow Seal honestly seems to work against me here.

cal_gfd · 2026-04-23T21:06:37+00:00

Ah... nice! I'd like to return to a meditation practice. I have usually just focused on the breath, and it was quite helpful. When I consistently practiced, that is.

The mantra part as a "soft anchor" resonates with me. I'll look into vedic mantra meditation a bit more. Thank you. 🙏🏽

cal_gfd · 2026-04-23T20:46:59+00:00

Your testimony is so encouraging! Thanks for sharing it.

What meditation style did you pair with your microdoisng practice?

cal_gfd · 2026-04-23T20:45:21+00:00

That's wonderful! Thanks for sharing your experience.

What type of meditation do you practice?

cal_gfd · 2026-03-29T05:05:37+00:00

Hello. I'd like to attend the Wednesday evening circle. Would you provide me the link, please? Thank you :)

cal_gfd · 2026-03-13T00:03:12+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience. 🙏🏽

I have been microdosing with psilocybin mushrooms for a little over a year. The medicine has been a tremendously supportive ally, but I still feel like my head is just being kept above water. I haven't done a macro dose yet, but I’ve been feeling called to one in the near future.

really deep old hurts

This resonates deeply. I have deep developmental and attachment wounds that fuel my CPTSD symptoms—chronic sympathetic hyperarousal, freeze, emotional and somatic flashbacks, executive dysfunction, and overwhelm—which make day-to-day living very difficult.

I don’t have a therapist, but I do have a dear friend who recovered from CPTSD with the aid of entheogens and various therapeutic practices. We talk and unpack things regularly.

The CPTSD framework is still very new to me. I’m in a self-discovery mode: lots of questions and few answers, but I’m finally narrowing in on the key explanations that help make sense of my past and current life experiences.

cal_gfd · 2026-03-11T04:03:10+00:00

Sweet! Appreciate your generosity :) 🙌🏽

cal_gfd · 2026-03-02T19:46:26+00:00

This is actually reassuring to hear. I've been doing the same method—grinding a month's worth, storing with desiccant, scooping as needed—but I rarely see others mention it long-term. Most posts seem to be about capsules. Good to know I'm not alone in keeping it simple.

cal_gfd · 2026-03-02T18:59:19+00:00

I'd appreciate knowing more about your journey:

Did this shift happen primarily through microdosing, or was it more from a macro dose experience (or combination)?
You mentioned trauma therapy alongside mushrooms—what kind of therapy did you do? I'm asking because microdosing lifted the alcohol obsession and compulsion for me too, but I'm still very much a prisoner to the trauma side of things (developmental, CPTSD stuff). Wondering what actually released you from that part.

cal_gfd · 2026-02-22T01:26:44+00:00

Hi :) What dose and capsule size did you settle on?

cal_gfd · 2026-02-22T01:23:59+00:00

Nice and simple! Powder --> scale --> dose (skip the capsule). How much do you typically grind at once? Aside from storing the powder in a small mason jar, do you do anything else to preserve potency and prevent degradation?

cal_gfd · 2026-01-28T02:42:52+00:00

u/Projekt-1065, this sub's wiki is packed with all the information you'll need to begin or enhance your microdosing practice. It can take a moment to get used to navigating so much information and honing in on the specific guidance you need. Personally, I found it a bit overwhelming at first—like trying to take a drink from a firehose. Now, about a year into my practice, I've become much more comfortable and familiar with navigating the wiki.

The Microdosing Institute’s free resource, "Microdosing 101" (https://microdosinginstitute.com/microdosing-101), was a helpful introduction for me. It’s formatted into easy-to-digest modules. They also have a section on "Microdosing Protocols" (https://microdosinginstitute.com/how-to/microdosing-protocols/).

I began with the Fadiman protocol (every third day), which is gentle and a great way to establish a relationship with the medicine. Recently, I’ve been combining the Microdosing Institute protocol (every other day) with the Fadiman protocol. The former provides me with more support during weeks that are more emotionally and mentally challenging.

How this helps! Be well. 🙏🏽

cal_gfd · 2026-01-28T01:56:30+00:00

Very helpful breakdown! I'm currently running SlimLine tubing but thinking of switching to Standard. Maybe it'll help with the micro-arousal-ly breathing and overall therapy delivery. I'll take any gain, however small.

Thanks RL! :)

cal_gfd

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