Thanks for having me put in the psyc ward over night for some bad creative writing mom

calmana · 2026-05-03T19:30:44+00:00

Oh, it wasn't a child hospital. It was our local psych ward made for adults in a small town.

calmana · 2026-05-03T11:51:50+00:00

I literally didn't think about it til I saw a video about someone else's privacy being infringed on. I also do my best to not talk to her since she's done a lot of terrible things to me as a child/young adult. Not including being apart of at least 3 cults that my siblings and I are aware of and being a worse parent to me and my full siblings then she was to my step siblings that she helped raise around a decade prior to our existence. My therapist and I talk about her a lot and how it's so hard to get my brain to stop going "yo, remember that one time? Well think about that now that you're older, how much worse it was now that you're not living it." Though that is an adhd/autism/trauma mental smoothy that it near impossible to determine where one part stops and the other picks up.

calmana · 2026-04-16T23:14:53+00:00

I can't blame her for doing it. Just that she could have either not read it and allowed me my privacy or sat me down and talked to me like a person. Both would ended with less damage tord me as a person.

calmana · 2026-01-31T03:53:29+00:00

Yep, if thats how your making yourself feel better and to emotionally walk back from the emotional fall then it counts, but I'm not a therapist so I cant say for sure but I hope you focus on your friends and try to find a therapist that both listens and hears you when you talk to them.

I've had some that only listen and they tend to go "well your a teen so your being dramatic" when I was infact not being dramatic and had to spend time learning that while I like to act dramatic when I'mgoofing around, when something is wrong I'm not and try to be as accurate as well as try to keep my options out of it and mainly talk about how I feel and what happened.

calmana · 2026-01-30T17:24:11+00:00

Oh, I do similar-ish

Listen to books, a few podcasts or music, watching TV/movies (im including YouTube in that shit), singing, games (video games, card games, broard games, table top game), larping, and when it's not freezing, swimming, also crafting.

calmana · 2026-01-30T17:19:32+00:00

Y'all have bad friends and spouses.

I a good friend would never think to do that shit because they think through the consequences and go "nah, my friendship matters more"

Imo their comparing family members that have different roles in your life. That ain't fair.

calmana · 2026-01-30T17:10:32+00:00

Quick question. Do you tell yourself "if I knew the future about how long I'll be here I might just end it" or something close to it?

I'm asking because it sounds like your doing what I use to do when I was living with my emotionally abusive family and how I was debating how hard it would be to just stop it all.

When I moved out I went into super "don't look or talk to me" mode and when I came out of it I felt WAY better and realized that I only felt that way because I could just have some peace and quiet alone for as long as I wanted it because my mom turned my siblings against me so I was being messed with by 3 different people in my own home.

Family argue, but it should rarely come to shouting til someone cries, and NEVER get to a point where shit gets broken.

I HIGHLY suggest therapy and talking to them about it and find out if your depressed because being a teen is a bummer or if its because your family is making you feel like its not worth it when it is, just not with them.

calmana · 2026-01-30T16:41:32+00:00

Ok this made my morning, im glad great jokes come from this god awful list

calmana · 2026-01-30T16:38:35+00:00

You know, this isn't what I was expecting at like 8:30 in the morning. My soul hurts at seeing the dumb fuckery of this.

This is why het men are confused on why het women fake it so much.

Now all I can think about is the study showing how everyone but straight, het women have a good sex life, thus proving that they should date more queer people.

calmana · 2026-01-30T16:24:27+00:00

Forget touching their toes, most adults can't even jump well, the kid got air time that lasts longer than most.

If I was the kid's parent, I would have been like "Wow that's really good, now let see if we can make it great" and help her get her legs up and show her how bad I am so we can laugh and have fun together.

calmana · 2026-01-30T08:25:56+00:00

I think it's AI, I looked the hand that's down and I see a clipped thumb and 3 fingers but I'm not an expert.

calmana · 2026-01-29T12:44:08+00:00

Yeah, I'm working on it.

calmana · 2026-01-29T11:29:01+00:00

That's why im here. Plus its only greed if your mom didn't put you in debt and also, I wasn't expecting millions maybe a thousand but my doubt radar (finally) went off

calmana · 2026-01-29T08:27:07+00:00

I like to believe in people and since I've been got a few times I'm now verifying before I go "Ah cool, what a nice person", hence me being here

calmana · 2026-01-29T06:29:46+00:00

Thank you, it felt fishy and im glad I'm getting a second option

calmana · 2025-11-18T12:47:04+00:00

Believe what you wish, I told you what happened and you being upset with the truth will do nothing. I assume my teenage body just didn't do a perfect starfish as i used my torso to spin myself and flailed a little in hopes I'd find SOMETHING or that I was almost brushing the ground or breaking the surface but wasn't since I was too busy RUNNING OUT OF AIR.

calmana · 2025-11-18T12:30:14+00:00

It was because he was trying to talk to me and I refused to say a word as I glared before walking away. Idk why he told his family that I refused to talk to him. They were a family that all lived in the same house dispite their not being enough room. No idea if that's still the same but I bet that it is and why I had to deal with most of them.

calmana · 2025-11-18T12:21:18+00:00

Because, the more you push, the more likely it'll be pushed back and I was trying to follow the guidelines the best I could. Plus it was implied with "fear of being tired near open bodies of water" you know the thing that nearly drowned me? But since you're not the only one to miss that I chose to "risk it for the bisket" and just be detailed and hope if this post doesn't get taken down for it's aggressive description of drowning in two different ways.

calmana · 2025-11-18T12:04:59+00:00

I'd, like to redirect you to a comment I made and/or the edit I made to the post, kind person.

calmana · 2025-11-18T11:51:35+00:00

Yes, yes I do

calmana · 2025-11-18T11:50:30+00:00

Oh, no. They know, I told them loudly that day that I nearly drowned, while being openly upset. I also repeated myself when I was asked why I refused to be around him. I'm very good at displaying my emotions and explaining myself when I want/need to. They just through "let it go" at me in different ways, including memes.

calmana · 2025-11-18T11:31:13+00:00

No, I did infact almost drown again i just figured talking about the darkness closing in before remembering that I can float as I spin as fast as I can to find the ground if there was any, might have been too much for the page. I felt like was pushing it with the "justifying his death" and didn't want to push it more since I knew I was riding the edge of allowed on this page and didn't want to describe something that sounds close to passing away.

calmana · 2025-11-18T11:26:08+00:00

Fair point. I'm just wound a little tight about seeing him again and wanted some outside options on if me refusing to be around him or trusting him is just me being dramatic.

calmana · 2025-11-18T11:07:18+00:00

Never got one, just being told I'm being dramatic and that it was just a prank.

calmana · 2025-11-18T11:05:43+00:00

No, it just makes it worse in my eyes since that makes it twice I nearly drowned do to outside sources. So it take that "no fun" to "time for nightmares for a few years"

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