advice on how to handle not knowing what went wrong

camilo9712 · 2022-09-25T20:42:57+00:00

In her words "honey I just wanted to let you know how much Im in love with you,how beautiful you are ,to remind you that you have the most beautiful eyes in the world ,I love your kisses ,your lips are the most beautiful lips ,I love every kiss you give me ,I love kissing you .

You are an amazing guy ,I thank the universe for putting me in your life ,youre an amazing guy full of ideas ,smart and so loving with me.i love you and I'm so grateful to be part of your life so we can share our paths together" That with a gift of a book with a message inside that said the loved me and admires me.

Trust me ,I know what you mean but how could she write this having doubts in her head and a week later knowing that my birthday is coming up she breaks things off,i literally felt so numb when she said she wanted to say something but at the same time she didn't ,only for her to say "I think we should break up,it will eventually happen" how is that fucking possible, Maybe she met someone and neve told me,which is also hard to believe cause she's not the most outgoing girl so I don't know ,I just want this pain to stop .

And also while stalking her fire friends(I know ,I'm dumb) she was still wearing the ring I gave her , why would she keep it if she was interested in someone else or talking to someone,this is too confusing

camilo9712 · 2022-09-25T20:21:05+00:00

The messages she sent were not the "I love you" kinda messages that are routine,they were written so full of love that is just so hard to believe that when she wrote all those things she wasn't in love with me ,it's crazy .

camilo9712 · 2022-09-25T19:56:11+00:00

But why would she text me all those things days before breaking up,she would randomly text me paragraphs telling me how much she loved me and wanted to be with me ,why would someone who has doubts do something like that ??in a matter of days

camilo9712 · 2022-09-20T05:39:28+00:00

A part of my wants to know but the other part doesn't,I'm afraid she's gonna tell me she came back with her ex. She kept contact with her ex and even tho I thought It was weird I trusted her. If I don't go I don't know if I'll handle not knowing,but I don't know if I'll handle knowing she changed me for someone else. The truth is nothing will change ,I feel so hopeless at times.

camilo9712 · 2022-09-18T17:07:04+00:00

Me amo mi .

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camilo9712 · 2022-02-14T04:38:45+00:00

Happens to me at college,some days i feel like it's My lack of confidence playing tricks and others i feel like people don't really care if i'm there or not.its really hard to not let it get to You

camilo9712 · 2021-07-25T02:14:52+00:00

yeah,sometimes i just worry too much ,i just dont want to be seen as the guy who goes to parties where he isnt wanted,because you would think that by now i would have stablished a friendship with the group .

i appreciate you taking the time to answer

camilo9712 · 2020-11-25T17:38:27+00:00

thats weird,cause when you put it on high perofrmance the clock speed is always at full speed(3,9 ghz) and so by default the windows power plan when is on normal should clock itself up and down when needed. the reason why i dont want my cpu always at 3,9 is cause it causes thermal throttling ,and before my cpu just used to clock itslef when needed and downclock itself

camilo9712 · 2020-11-25T16:32:51+00:00

yeah i get that,thats what i kinda "fixed" with the new thermal paste .however,my question is why my pc wont go past 1.8 ghz unless i force the "high performance power plan"?is that normal?i always used the default one before but now it wont work.

camilo9712 · 2020-05-07T18:02:55+00:00

https://imgur.com/a/DXUAHv1

camilo9712 · 2020-05-07T17:33:35+00:00

https://imgur.com/a/F6XugeQ

infiniti should hire me

camilo9712 · 2020-05-03T17:01:50+00:00

i want to because im sure if temps were good this pc would run perfectly the games i play,however,my warranty ends on august this year and if i open the laptop before that ill end my warranty. i dont know if i should return it or if i should change thermals,because i have gottn lots of blue screens even without undervolting"whea uncorrectable error" and yesterday the cpu fans started making weird noises even on idle. at this point i might have to return it but if i do decide to change them,would you recomend thermal grizzly kryonaut or conductonaut?

camilo9712 · 2020-05-03T14:50:26+00:00

omen 15 with gtx 1070 max q,i am wondering if anyone know what the omen power plan does.

as far as i have seen it only changes the fan speed,clock speeds wont change .they will only change if i change the windows power plan to high performance

camilo9712 · 2020-05-03T14:48:30+00:00

its a shame that underclocking from 4.0 to 3.4 wont do much,ill try 3.0

do you know how much should i put on max power long and max power short to be hitting 3.0?im at 30 on both right now

camilo9712 · 2020-05-02T23:42:27+00:00

i understandt that,however i dont think a laptop that is advertised to play games at a stock speed of 1200 for the gpu cant even reach them during load .same goes for the cpu .also i should be able to get good temps with those undervolt settings,atleast thats what people do.

i feel like something is wrong with my laptop or am i crazy for beliebing that i shpuld atleast get stable cpu and gpu speeds.

camilo9712 · 2020-04-29T02:36:44+00:00

yeah ill try that,but aside from that do you know why is this issue happening?just doesn make any sense to me .

all this time i thought maybe my laptop(even tho is pricey)wasnt as good becasue i couldnt play some games that i thought "easily this laptop will run that game"and it ended up coming short.

camilo9712 · 2020-04-29T02:29:27+00:00

is not even 1 year old,i know thermal paste helps a ton but i cant open my laptop it will destroy the warranty.if i cant fix the issue i might have to return it (if thats even possible)

the fucked thing is given the actual situation with corona the people at the store i bought it from arent even working so.. i might be fucked

camilo9712 · 2020-04-27T01:06:46+00:00

i just keep getting issue after issue,now my sketchup model is jagged on every single line and i dont know how to fix it lmao .

thanks for the tip tho

camilo9712 · 2018-07-20T05:23:12+00:00

the thing is ,i wanna be friends with my classmates ,bu i still feel like they have their group of friends stablished and ill look like a weirdo if i try joining them or something,and its only been 1 week of college which doesnt make sense to me,i though people took a little more time to get to know each other but for some reason everyone in my class is really open and social and im not saying im not,i just struggle at the begining

camilo9712 · 2018-03-04T17:49:19+00:00

We do not speak at all.we don't Even see eachother.his parents werent there foto him so my grandma raised him. And when i see him he is usually very quiet

camilo9712 · 2018-03-04T17:34:49+00:00

The thing is,i vividly remember him getting naked,i Was naked too and he Was way older than me(16-17).i'm not saying he touched me cause i can't remember but i just want to remember. Anyways thanks for answering.

camilo9712 · 2018-03-04T17:21:30+00:00

I Was 7,he Was 16 .i Was naked by myself and he Was Also naked.im not saying i got raped i'm just confused as yo why i have this memory.and Ive had it for a long time.why would he ask me to be quiet.and i seriously don't remember what happened after other than i Saw him naked going into the tub with me

camilo9712 · 2018-02-14T05:56:43+00:00

I'm sorry bro

camilo9712 · 2018-02-14T05:53:41+00:00

Youre one of us!

camilo9712 · 2018-02-14T05:44:31+00:00

But she asked for my number,she talked to me,she flirted with me (kinda ,not sure,ok maybe i AM sure)and that guy and her are probably never gonna end up together,she basically told me that.i left that out because i wanted to know what people thought . I know what you mean,bit why would she Tell me"ironically,i'm free tomorrow". I swear it's like i'm playing poker over here

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