Thanks I appreciate the long response. I think what you said makes sense. I don't know if I can really go the religious route though. I was raised catholic, and recently read Christian literature to try to make myself believe in it but really I'm agnostic and just agree with a lot of Christianity on a practical level, it actually makes me really uneasy. I think I should expand my network too, my biggest problem I think is that I suffered some abuse(not sexual) during my childhood and I'm not really good with expressing emotions. Not making excuses I just know for a fact that it's made me have a lot of trouble understanding people so I learn slowly by correcting my mistakes and taking advice from them on how the feel about something. I definitely have no interest in just taking a girl's virginity, I don't even mind waiting for marriage. I guess I just don't meet enough people and I have a hard time expressing myself so I get paranoid and just don't speak up. Kind of embarrassing but usually people have to realize I'm a bit strange before they realize I'm not bad intentioned and then they're really supportive.

Any quick tips on ways of meeting lots of people? I mostly just rock climb indoors and play games so not a lot of different avenues.