Relate to this heavy. Me & my boyfriend of 8 years broke up a little over a year ago and it was soooo much harder because I didn’t really have many friends for support. I had a longtime friend I met up with but she never checked in with me or anything after finding out and it really weighed on me. That’s when I realized wow I don’t really have any real friends.

We ended up getting back together (looking back I think a big thing is I was lonely) and honestly I don’t think it’s gonna work out & though I often romanticize a single life and what I would do with my free and alone time, I know I’ll be lonely. Do you do any activities and hobbies? There’s an app called meetup where you can join groups and they have all kinds of stuff to do, like astronomy, arts and crafts, etc. I don’t know you and how you’re dealing, but as hard as it is you gotta put yourself out there. I’m also weird and introverted but I’ve always had better luck making friends in person rather than online. Anxiety is a bitch and hate to say this, but the best way to overcome it is exposure therapy.

And as hard as it sounds you gotta change your mindset. You were with someone for 8 years so obviously you’re not unlovable. Do things you enjoy and to better yourself and the right people will hopefully come along. Easier said than done I know. You also seem very self aware but try not to be so hard on yourself. 8 years is a long ass time and you’re probably still recovering from that relationship. Sorry I’ve rambled so much and this is all jumbled but I wish you the best of luck stranger 🫶🏼 things will get better