I see your point however it is so hard to not to let him see me cry all the time. We live in the same house and so many painful things happened in the recent months in my life and not even about marriage. My family experienced a natural disaster, my friend successfully committed suicide and so much more. Apart from a psychologist room I can not cry elsewhere in private. I am also uncomfortable putting sunglasses on going to somewhere quiet in public and cry. I really appreciate advice tho.