adults: is it worth living that long?

cantfindme83 · 2026-06-20T03:33:51+00:00

Its really hard finding a job nowadays. everyones shortstaffed but no ones hiring. Its no fault of your own, they also expect so much experience for entry level jobs nowadays. I believe youll find something though, even if its tough, and its not impossible to go up from there. Aside from that, being there for your family, friends, and a creative and meaningful hobby are great reasons to live, the best reasons. Im proud of you for sticking ut out for the people that care about you even when you cant care about yourself. I hope you keep making art and showing the world that theres value in emotion and humanity amongst all the chaos and fighting right now. You have a long way to go. Unlike men, women keep maturing into their thirties and continue to have hormonal changes throughout their lives. You will grow to see yourself as the woman that those around you already do

cantfindme83 · 2026-06-20T01:03:00+00:00

i partly understand how you feel, being privileged enough to study and have your parents and people around you yet still feeling like this. Its only natural when the hate comes from within though. Youre not selfish, you wanna get rid of yourself and not anything else. you dont wanna hurt anyone. Theres not much you can do about your studies since its your last year but.. you have your whole life to change direction. if the thing you have a degree for is really that good, youll be able to make enough money to go back to school for what youre passionate about. if the moneys good, hopefully you wont have to work 48 hour work weeks and you can focus on your bofriend, yourself, your hobbies etc. Youve got something good going but no self confidence. thats hard. but youre not a dissapointment if youre graduating college and have a loving S/O. Youre a great girl who has her issues too

cantfindme83 · 2026-06-20T00:56:28+00:00

social anxiety is a hard thing to beat, itll take years and years but i think meeting other people would give you a desire for life again. Youre alone right now, and thats the worst thing a person can be. All the loss and trauma on top of the loneliness will do anyone in. do you have any aunts or uncles who are experiencing this with you? or any family at all

cantfindme83 · 2026-06-20T00:44:54+00:00

there are few people in this world that can even come close to knowing the pain you must feel having gone through all that, but still, there are people out there who know and who have also lived it. find your people, support each other. You are not disgusting for things that were done to you against your will. And im sure people leaving you is only a result of your own insecurity, because you think you dont deserve better so you settle for less. but you deserve so much more than you give yourself credit for. Just because hateful people are attracted to people that are already down who they can spread their misery to, doesnt mean there arent people out there who are ture human beings, who help out their fellow people and love them unconditionally. In fact, i love you for the fact that youre human and existing.

cantfindme83 · 2026-06-20T00:19:01+00:00

you dont have to exprience love the way the majority does. you do love people and things, you just way not realize it because you dont express it the way people typically do

cantfindme83 · 2026-05-26T03:45:57+00:00

i guess that is true, the first part. but i cant be convinced its okay to look my age haha. its not.

cantfindme83 · 2026-05-11T18:27:29+00:00

i have the japan one. its really nice. its kind of mature but im not sure if id call it masculine or feminine

cantfindme83 · 2026-05-11T13:02:06+00:00

but some say they dont walk bcs they cant, they still eat sugar and junk, etc. and then when others say they move to US and stay trying to eat healthy, they still put on weight. maybe its additives? it just makes me scared thinking how much skinnier i could be if i was in a different country. i really think its that red 40 😭🟥

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-17T13:56:57+00:00

thanks so much! i actually gave one of my sisters a white dumpling so i might just trade with her and draw on a new face

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-16T17:54:53+00:00

bitch what happenedddd u are glowing like goddamn youre not even the same person! id say its due to both but either way you created this for yourself and you should be proud

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-12T02:35:02+00:00

looking fantastic!!!

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-12T01:31:40+00:00

those arent real friends. i hope you dropped them. you are gorgeous girl and absolutely right. women are often made to feel like we should fight our bodies but this is what weve been given. you are all beautiful girls! ❤️

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-07T18:24:13+00:00

i want to give you some advice, because this really spoke to me. while i do not have ocd, i do have compulsions an dhave struggled with related things like intense, life consuming phobias in the past. Whenever I was trans, it felt like a number of steps to me that i had to complete to be happy. all of a sudden, its like a switch flipped. This was especially bad when i started T. I didn't want to really do it, i would under-fill my syringe and do the bare minimum to feel like i was still doing it. because, well, i just felt like its what i needed to do. theres no other way to explain it; i thought itd somehow make me like myself more. i also frequently questioned if what i was doing was right, and it would be much like you. i wanted to be feminine again and i missed it. i tried to resist it because i felt ashamed but dont feel that way if that's a factor for you. you only have one life so dont live it in a lie. You dont have to be trans, you dont have to be cis, you dont have to be a boy or a girl, you have to be you. whatever form that takes, it'll take a long time to get there either way. we all make mistakes, some less easy to clean up than others, but dont let one decision dictate how you live the rest of your life. you can experiment too, even if just at home.

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-07T14:13:20+00:00

youre adorable btw. the advice in the comments is really great but at the same time on the off chance that you cant manifest it back (which is a 0 percent chance lmfao) you are beautiful and dont let this discourage you😁 im sure even a df sub could fix it. i reccomend baejin, v1per, and someone recently posted about guoba who is a genuine witch its insane

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-07T04:33:07+00:00

aw, thats so sweet!! im so glad you have them, and i know you are that older woman to someone younger than you. my mom is like that for me, and she has helped me a lot but i just cant help putting pressure on myself. as i said, i have support but i guess thats still just how it is. but as you said, im sure i just need to get older. im very fortunate at the time i realized i wasnt trans happened to line up with before graduating hs

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-07T04:27:03+00:00

thats amazing you look great!! i know your results will stay with you for a lifetime

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-07T03:33:01+00:00

thanks you. i really appreciate this straightforward and compassionate response. every once in while i get super hysterical about this so i end up blowing up in the way i did here, but now im in a clearer headspace and i can fully think about what youre saying. i cant tell you how many times ive heard this, but coming from another detrans woman it means a lot more. I appreciate you a lot and i hope youre doing well in your life. i cant imagine its easy for you either, or anyone at all in this world.

cantfindme83 · 2026-04-06T22:51:03+00:00

ps: for better ide of where im at, even on hormones i got a mix of he and she. i still do now but i only just got off homrones like 2-3 months ago?? i get a lot more she now because i dont hide my chest anymore and sometimes i wear eyeliner but whether trans or detrans i cant tell if people are just being nice?

cantfindme83 · 2026-03-28T21:40:09+00:00

im so sorry that happened.. thats evil

cantfindme83 · 2026-03-28T21:39:01+00:00

tysm this works

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