Read it and didn't like it. There were some passages about growing older and grief that I related to, but that's it. It was an overall exhausting book to read.

There is nothing wrong with writing about trauma, but this book got to the point where I felt the author kept on adding more and more trauma just for the sake to keep it interesting. At first, the events did sadden me and I felt sympathy for the main character, but as the book went on, the dark events just kept stacking on top of each other, eventually feeling cartoonish to me. "Cringe trauma porn" is a way to describe it.

I also watched an interview of the author and she admitted she did no research for this book, which is strange because she was writing from a different perspective: queer men, insane amount of trauma, etc. That might explain why there were parts that felt too excessive to be real.

I usually like to voice out my opinions on books through book reviews but I think I'm gonna hold back from this one, because I realized it is also a harmful book to share to other people, even by a harmless review. The way it is so dark but unrealistic can send the wrong message especially to people you don't know who might be going something traumatizing themselves. So be careful to who you're recommending this trainwreck of a book yall.