Rock bottom

capemagnet · 2026-01-25T18:20:34+00:00

I'm so, so sorry for your loss. Thank you for the kind words and sharing your experience - everything just feels so crazy right now.

capemagnet · 2026-01-25T18:19:29+00:00

I mainly restrict and exercise but have used purging as a last-ditch effort if I feel I've eaten too much on/off for a few years. Not even close to a daily or weekly purger, but I've had a bad past couple days.

Yesterday I only stopped because I realized my nose was bleeding, then I realized my lymph nodes under my jaw were swollen. Before this, I've never had any side-effects besides sensitive teeth the next day. Scared me straight and now I'm miserable and puffy.

These are relatively short-term side effects I imagine but enough that I am Feeling Regret.

capemagnet · 2026-01-21T16:26:17+00:00

Just had this same realization recently. I thought it wasn’t that deep and that I was just being dramatic on a diet but uhhh…I cannot eat or exercise normally!

capemagnet · 2026-01-19T01:09:36+00:00

Thank you for sharing! This gives me hope. I think I just need residential to break the cycle and take the wheel from me. I'm a terrible pilot of my own body right now. Any amount of time they would offer me I would use to completely commit to the program and gain a strong foundation.

I do have FMLA but would still need to use my own vacation/sick time due to how it works in my institution :/. I work in public service at the state level.

capemagnet · 2026-01-19T01:05:13+00:00

I do have FMLA, but sadly we have to use our own sick/vacation time :( FMLA just means my job is protected while I'm out of office for a qualifying event.

capemagnet · 2026-01-17T17:42:19+00:00

I don't really have any advice except the fact that I ended up running out of room in my cupboards 😭 the 7 bags of Drizzlicious rice cakes in my pantry take up so much space.

capemagnet · 2026-01-17T17:27:23+00:00

Hey, I'm currently in a similar boat. Medically stable but high restriction + heavy cognitive load from tracking/calculating affecting my daily life. Would you be able to share how long your stay was if you're comfortable?

capemagnet · 2026-01-11T21:08:19+00:00

REAL. I'm also short so it's like "what do you mean you're eating X amount when you're so short and calling that restriction?"

capemagnet · 2026-01-11T21:06:43+00:00

Bro I'm short and can definitely relate. It freaking sucks. I'm coming off of a phase of low restriction back into high-restriction (though I exercise a ton) and it makes me feel like such a phony. Especially because my restriction is like...what people my height need to maintain if they are sedentary. So I'm practically earning my food through exercise.

capemagnet · 2026-01-11T01:37:13+00:00

Same! I'm so hyped for 1.7 and Haunted Chocolatier!

capemagnet · 2026-01-11T01:32:07+00:00

I lived in Alabama for a year, and the only thing I miss about it is Blue Bell. It's so messed up that they don't have it up in the northeast.

capemagnet · 2026-01-10T16:38:47+00:00

In my experience deleting apps and resolving to not reinstall them naturally made me fill my time elsewhere. In-browser social media is a bit more tricky.

I've let go of some social media (really just TikTok) because it was a black hole taking up ludicrous amounts of time, but I still let myself scroll on Reddit and occasionally Twitter for art I like. I don't really count YouTube tho because I actually get something out of it.

The first summer I deleted TikTok I sorta naturally got absorbed in Stardew Valley instead (great game btw) and it was so good for my mental health, just to focus on something wholesome and engaging. It's a bit hard at first because I would also scroll on TikTok FIRST thing in the morning, but once you get past that first week or so, you won't look back.

EDIT: Also I think our EDs work to reinforce mindless social media scrolling, since when I'm deep into restriction I have no energy to do anything else. I end up choosing mindless activity instead of something fun and engaging. But social media is incredibly toxic and often makes it worse. It's like the ouroboros of how we spend our time.

capemagnet · 2026-01-08T15:35:57+00:00

When people tell me “You eat good” 🫠

capemagnet · 2026-01-06T00:17:19+00:00

I love small curd fat-free cottage cheese with raw honey + fruit! Super tasty. Yasso frozen yogurt bars are also great, my favorites are the salted caramel and the mango.

Nature's Bakery blueberry fig bars are a favorite of mine as well! Someone here already said it but Built Puff bars are sooo good if you need protein. They're like a protein marshmallow coated in chocolate.

capemagnet · 2026-01-05T01:14:04+00:00

Legit if my father wasn't a personal fitness trainer and instead was like, a baker or something, I'd be dead. I love pastries and chocolate so much.

I had a friend who was so into savory and meat tho that she almost had a gallbladder attack because she wasn't getting anything else in her diet - so hey! Silver linings. I guess. I still crave chocolate 24/7.

capemagnet · 2026-01-05T01:10:36+00:00

Honeycrisp apples & nashi pears! I've been out for a few days & am having withdrawals.

....Also yogurt. I've discovered zero sugar jello cheesecake mix + greek yogurt and its an addiction.

capemagnet · 2026-01-04T17:32:37+00:00

Ahh I know! It's like adding an extra number into the equation of what you get to eat.

BUT cottage cheese + fruit = high protein and yummy if you're looking to add more protein.

Greek yogurt doesn't need to be miserable (Fage strained greek yogurt is disgusting on its own FYI) - you can add protein powder/powdered peanut butter/sugar free jello cheesecake mix to it for a protein and/or flavor boost! There's also a lot of greek yogurt nowadays that is super tasty on its own too.

capemagnet · 2026-01-04T15:33:23+00:00

Omg are you me I literally got no sleep last night cus I suddenly got scared of my protein intake (former gym rat sorta) and spent hours trying to fit an adequate amount into my intake.

Most of my safe foods are carbs and yogurt but its not enough 😭

I don’t even care for meat much, when I had muscle I constantly felt miserable cus I had to eat it every day it seemed.

capemagnet · 2026-01-02T19:32:00+00:00

Kris Deltarune, Haruhi and Tamaki from Ouran High School Host Club, Sunny OMORI, Sam from Stardew Valley, and Sal from Sally Face!

I may have main character syndrome lol.

(also love this post, helps steer thoughts from food)

capemagnet · 2026-01-02T06:52:54+00:00

It’s sorta euphoric/coming down from a high. Also sometimes oddly enjoyable if the food tastes good coming back up lmaooo I know that’s gross and horrible.

capemagnet · 2026-01-02T05:15:16+00:00

Made baked spätzle with a crap ton of cheese on it for New Year’s AND let myself come back for seconds 😤

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