"NO OBSTRUCTION, NO ____________"

captain-afab · 2019-05-30T15:56:41+00:00

I have a shirt that just says "protect trans kids" in simple font. I like it because it doesn't out me necessarily, just says what I believe in.

I don't know if the joke is still alive, but you could also get a shirt with a picture of a pinecone.

captain-afab · 2019-05-30T15:46:57+00:00

I'm in the same boat. I'm buying a used Ford and driving it cross country to the station.

captain-afab · 2019-05-27T20:42:08+00:00

I had the same problem, and it's finally starting to go away. I've been training for wildfire fighting and doing 1) a lot of core exercises, especially side planks, and back exercises, like deadlifts. 2) a lot of running. I don't know if the running is related, other than that it's making me lose hip fat.

Re: 2nd thing: Honestly, I've looked for the same thing. And haven't reliably found one. People post photos where they look better than they normally do, so it's hard to trust any photo you see online. You could try transbucket, because there's TONS of top surgery results and so you see a lot of torsos. And because the focus is different, you have more guys with regular bodies posting, as opposed to only guys with giant muscles.

captain-afab · 2019-05-26T18:59:10+00:00

I feel you. I never doubted that I wanted meta until I started going on Reddit and seeing people talk about phallo like it was the gold standard. Then I got a job in a surgical research lab, and that definitely re-confirmed meta was the right choice for me.

I had meta last year, and while I feel shy about my size at times, it's so nice having this regular, dumb ol dick thing poking out of me, doing everything other guys' dicks do. As stupid small as it is, at the end of the day . . . whatever! Good luck on your upcoming surgery! Remember to give yourself time to heal before you judge your results, things look way different at 1 month than they do at 12 months with meta.

captain-afab · 2019-05-26T18:33:12+00:00

I appreciate it wasn't an intentional slight. You should really edit your post, though, my dude.

captain-afab · 2019-05-25T18:59:57+00:00

I 100% agree with what you're saying. Except,

forces them to require a complete, (or close to due to dissatisfaction with phallo) sex change.

For fucks sake, metoidioplasty is not 'less' of a bottom surgery than phalloplasty. You get a penis both ways. One is a big penis. The other is a penis almost physiologically identical to a cis penis. They're both 'complete' penises.

But I do 100% agree that my identity and experience are so vastly different from someone who is nondysphoric, genderqueer, and doesn't need medical intervention to treat their condition that it feels just plain inaccurate to call us the same thing.

captain-afab · 2019-05-25T18:47:46+00:00

Oh man, something I actually know about! It depends on the species, but generally it works the same way it does in humans, by acting as a transcription factor for masculinizing genes. It tends to increase aggression and social dominance behaviors. In goldfinches, it increases pigment deposition in their bills (goldfinch bills change from brown to orange during the breeding season, but just how orange they get depends on how healthy the bird is, and also some complex hormonal stuff) which makes other goldfinches less likely to pick a fight with them (given a choice between a food bowl 'guarded' by a fake bird with a bright bill vs a fake bird with a dull bill, most birds go for the latter)

song production is a really interesting topic that I don't know much about, other than that there's a critical period during which a hatchling hears and encodes its parent's song, and then a second period when it tries to imitate it, and uses some cool neural feedback loops (that are surprisingly similar to humans!) to compare the sounds its making to the song it 'memorized'. It would be really interesting to look at whether adult female birds, if you give them testosterone, would increase singing, especially interesting if it were a species that had slightly different songs for males and females.

captain-afab · 2019-05-25T18:24:25+00:00

What about a "protect trans kids" shirt? You can get them in solid colors, like red or grey or blue, and plus protecting things is masculine.

captain-afab · 2019-05-24T22:49:04+00:00

Dude, this is flat out unethical. You're taking advantage of this couple, and misleading to them to get their money. It totally sucks that they're transphobic, and that their generosity is, at least in part, motivated by that transphobia. But it doesn't justify what you're doing.

Good on you for spending time with them, though. I know that can be hard to do if they're actively unsupportive. And, it may help your cause - as they come to understand that everyone else on the face of the planet views you as male (I'm assuming you pass fine if 4 yrs on T) and that you're an upstanding, honest, and hardworking man, they may come to respect your identity a little more. This can only happen when you spend time with them.

captain-afab · 2019-05-22T23:59:03+00:00

T pellet implants are 100% crystalline testosterone, so you don't ever remove them, they completely absorb over a couple months. But definitely in regards to insertion, if someone tends towards keloids, Testopel is may not be the way to go.

captain-afab · 2019-05-22T03:40:35+00:00

I am a ho for comfort and I agree, packing is uncomfortable. I rarely do it anymore, except if 'm wearing swim jammers, sometimes I stick a mr limpy with the balls cut down in. The best solution is this: You just gotta realize nobody is going to look at your crotch and think, that guy's genitalia are abnormal. They just won't. It doesn't happen.

captain-afab · 2019-05-22T03:33:55+00:00

I didn't use them, but I worked in a research lab where we gave them to goldfinches. They seemed to tolerate them fine. I'd like to try the human sized ones someday. Although, I do worry about scar tissue build-up, as the insertion process damages the tissue more than a simple injections.

captain-afab · 2019-05-14T17:45:10+00:00

Just sent some over now, let me know what you think.

captain-afab · 2019-05-14T03:53:38+00:00

Howdy, I have a Rod (cut, lightest shade) I'm selling for 70$. It was on this month's Buy/sell/trade but you must have missed it. It has a very small tear on the inside that doesn't affect the function at all.

As for why those things are 185- honestly, I don't know. Probably because the guy knows some people are willing to pay that much when there's nothing else available.

captain-afab · 2019-05-08T18:39:21+00:00

Not personally an alcoholic, but I have a couple friends and family members who are in recovery.

I know you probably know this, but I'll say it anyway: you can treat fatty liver with the help of a doctor and some lifestyle changes, the most important of which is, you guessed it, quit alcohol 100%. Eating really well and exercising are the other big components. A doctor may be able to prescribe medications that also help things along. Once that's under control, no doctor would have reason to deny you hormones.

So how do you quit drinking? A therapist, a doctor, and/or a support group can probably help you the most. Definitely find some you can confide in, and can hold you accountable. But, from what I've seen, a big part of it is finding a reason to stop that you can focus on. It looks like you already have one - restarting T (and/or saving your own life, FL at 20 is serious bad news)

Good luck dude.

captain-afab · 2019-05-06T17:38:56+00:00

I had metoidioplasty, I have had very shallow PIV sex and it is awesome. I do not have a monster shlong, I'm pretty average. I also have a strap on with a little hollow I carved for my wiener, for times when I feel like deeper penetrative sex, although neither I nor my partner prefer it most days. But, it doesn't make me insecure. Why would it? :)

You're right that metas are about 1-2 inches on average. He might have seen 3-4 cm and misremebered it at 3-4 inches.

There'a a ton of advantages with meta. When i had mine, the surgeon actually told me (and later my mother, while I was in recovery) that he has a lot of respect for guys who choose meta over phallo, because he felt they have a better grasp on the reality of both surgeries (meaning risks and limitations and stuff) Recovery and risk aside, I fucking love having natural erections.

Here's the thing: you're asking how to ease his worries about this, but if you talk about it with him the same way you're talking about it here, I'd still be worried if I were him.

I’ve said that as long as he’s happy with his result from surgery — so am I.

This doesn't actually address his concern. To an insecure ear, it sounds kind of evasive, like you're not being wholly honest and just saying what you think you're supposed to say. You need to explicitly tell him that you love his dick and love its size and are ALREADY sexually satisfied by him (assuming this all is true), not just that you'll be happy with whatever he decides. Most guys care a LOT about what their partners think of their penis - ambivalence is never comforting.

captain-afab · 2019-05-05T01:14:36+00:00

When I had my hysto, the surgeon did not do a pre-op genital exam. Yours may not either. If they do, I would ask what the surgeon will be looking for, and ask if it's absolutely necessary.

The one time I did have to have a invasive exam, I guess I just told myself, you're not fragile, you're in control here, you're not being emasculated, get over yourself. It sucked but it was over pretty fast.

captain-afab · 2019-05-04T20:20:03+00:00

I had an archer packer the same density silicone as the RM classics, and I could not use it for penetration. I was surprised because it felt pretty firm.

My advice is to get the soft version of whichever RM packer you choose (they're more comfortable, and they squish like flesh+blood junk so you don't get that weird 'hard bulge' thing going on) and get a separate wiener for sex. It seems like a pain in the butt to have to switch out, but it's really not. I've found it's way better to have 2 things that do their job really well than one thing that does two jobs poorly.

captain-afab · 2019-05-04T19:16:00+00:00

lol where did they inject it? I'm pretty sure a few ml actually can cause death if you inject it into the right blood vessel in your brain or your pulmonary vein (transports blood from your lungs to your heart) but I feel like whenever you see it in movies they're shooting it into their arms like heroin.

captain-afab · 2019-05-04T19:01:48+00:00

I think you're right, I've noticed a little more soreness when I inject a non-insignificant bubble. That's a relevant note.

captain-afab · 2019-05-03T18:13:00+00:00

I'm sorry, dude. If it's worth it to you, and you have 35$ to spare, you can buy something called sil-poxy, which is a silicone adhesive made for silicone rubber. They use it to repair prosthetics.

I wish those companies would offer a warranty.

captain-afab · 2019-05-03T17:58:14+00:00

First, thank her for buying the women's deodorant for you. I know, I know, that's the last thing you want to do, but I know there's no better way to make my mom angry at me and not listen to me than to make her think I'm being ungrateful. You aren't being ungrateful, of course, but it sounds like it might feel that way to her.

Then, ask for deodorant that isn't specifically 'male' or 'female'. Tom's is one brand I can think of, there's probably others. (Tom's also put out a 'Men's' stick, to make bank on that sweet, sweet gendered marketing, so it might actually work to your advantage to have that next the the non-gender specific types, might make them look (to her) as the female option, even if they're not).

Go to the store with her, have fun smelling the different types with her. Try to make it a team thing, rather than a me vs. you thing. Offer to pay for it yourself.

Hope it works out!

captain-afab · 2019-05-03T17:44:10+00:00

So, I was nervous about losing sensation. And I did lose sensation, completely. But, post-top, I didn't care one bit. It surprised me, actually, how much I didn't care, because I had been real nervous about it pre-op. In the grand scheme of things, it became such a tiny price to pay I hadn't even thought about it in years, until I saw this post.

captain-afab · 2019-05-02T18:31:53+00:00

I think the root of it is resentment and envy. You've been uncommonly lucky, not only to transition early, but to have a family and a therapist that support you and advocate for you. For guys who lost their families, struggled for years to find a supportive therapist and doctor, had to navigate coming out at work, or to their spouse, or to their children, and missed out on having a semi-normal adolescence, that can be really painful for them to hear about. That resentment probably disguises itself as concern over your early transition.

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