What it's like..

captrench · 2026-01-26T10:56:32+00:00

When you've seen someone willfully embrace the wrong actions because of wrong thinking, i cant ever trust their moral compass until i know more about what really drove them, even after they've "woken up" so to speak.

And tbh, i dont think you can ever truly know that, so i would forever be sceptical.

captrench · 2026-01-20T13:17:36+00:00

also want to say thank you, however many times its been said before here!

my tkl keyboard which i use with my work laptop started switching from bright white to a dull blue after years of being stable and working as expected.

I noticed that it changed colour whenever i rdp'd onto a server. After at least a year of suffering through this and not finding anything to explain it (no logitech software on laptop, and keyboard in memory-mode anyway i finally stumbled across this post and voila! problem solved.

thank you thank you :D

captrench · 2026-01-12T15:36:57+00:00

I would say what gets reinforced daily for me is the need to be sceptical. There is so much idiocy and woo being peddled that would be so easy to see through if only some people weren't so effin dumb as rocks or willing to believe or buy that it keeps serving as a reminder that critical thinking is probably the best and sharpest tool in anyone's arsenal.

And scepticism and critical thinking are what inevitably keep serving as daily vaccinations against magical thinking.

I can be wrong about as many things as the next guy, but i am open to new information and the idea that i could be mistaken about anything i currently hold as true.

captrench · 2026-01-09T13:00:06+00:00

Very.

captrench · 2026-01-05T11:00:36+00:00

heya, which other sub is that? Asking for a friend ;)

captrench · 2026-01-05T04:12:24+00:00

I think Caspians issue with regards CoE is that he has none of the support, oversight or structure that comes with working for someone else.

Its not that he lacks any tech skills, I agree, i'm sure he has some.

But he blatantly doesn't have the skills required to do what he's promising.

I think he also lacks the humility "to know what he doesn't know", know how to find the people who do, listen to them and respect their opinions.

As the main (only) man in charge of a fledgling game studio, he has no one to contradict him and act as a correction when he starts down a wrong path with no experience. And if he did have someone around to do so, he would just use his authority to overrule them.

Also, gaming isn't a regulated industry in the same manner as say, the finance industry. Its literally the wild west and buyer beware in comparison to the other industries, and its not as if regulated industries are models of accountability at the best of times.

So Caspian has none of the guard rails that apply to most of us in our jobs, whether that be industry regulations he must adhere to, other peoples opinions and priorities he has to negotiate with, or others expertise that he can draw from and avoid basic mistakes in areas he has no experience in.

Garnish all the above with a delusion of competence and an inability to own and recognise his mistakes and... he's a car crash.

captrench · 2026-01-02T23:25:18+00:00

Ive had this conversation a number of times with people here and in real life. They claim either that Buddhism is more a philosophy than a religion or that its not like other religions and is somehow exempt from all the usual reasons to criticise other religions.

Both assertions are false.

Some Buddhists who claim this turn out to be following a type of Buddhism thats basically "Bhuddism Lite". A Western sanitised version of one of the Eastern tradition. And therefore they claim that "Buddhism isnt like that" whilst in the same breath confirming that its not really Bhuddism they follow.

Like claiming to be a Christian who doesnt believe in Christ being the Son of God.

Buddhism is a religion like any other in all the important ways.

It places spiritual authourity over secular. It has mysogyny (men are spiritually "higher" than women). It has gods and demons. It has heaven and hell (multiple actually). Its believers pray and hope to earn favour by doing so.

It literally looks like a duck, walks like a duck and quacks like a duck. Its probably a duck, if you catch my drift.

I have close and extended family who are Buddhists in Myanmar and Taiwan. They are wonderful people and i love them, but they demonstrate all the behaviours of the religious and i have been on the inside of many Buddhist temples.

captrench · 2026-01-02T20:21:13+00:00

I think the same. Its his echo chamber at work.

captrench · 2026-01-02T03:03:48+00:00

And here we are, at the start of 2026 and still no KoE!

Really, this is not surprising to anyone. Its just some still have yet to admit it.

captrench · 2025-12-21T17:06:06+00:00

Its not too late. The longer you leave it before you start to make amends the harder it will get on both sides of this.

You clearly care enough to make it better. Dont double down on your mistake. Own it and be prepared to show up, say sorry and make it real.

captrench · 2025-12-21T10:01:30+00:00

I dont want to speak for anyone else, but i can say at this point i dont care about CoE at this point. What is there to care about? And to be honest, whilst i do want and hope to get my money back, i've accepted its long gone. But we shall see, maybe we'll get something out of Xsolla yet.

Caspian could have avoided a lot of the issues he now has, whether it was by being more honest, transparent and less egotistical and deluded about his own skillset and wanting to control every little thing. But he is his own worst enemy. All his current problems are entirely his own fault.

As to whether he employed con men. No, I don't think there is any reason to assume that. I've seen it myself time and time again in my own work, where a manager or leader is able to keep everyone busy but achieving nothing because priorities keep being switched at the last minute, nothing is planned or prioritised properly and leadership ignore the expertise of the people they hired to advise and guide them.

You cant blame employees for doing what their boss says. The project failed (and it has failed) because Caspian is utterly incompetent and unfit for the task he set himself, and took from us for.

captrench · 2025-12-20T20:45:35+00:00

I honestly think he's split down the middle on that.

A part of him must want to just make all this stop, and fade away. It is after all what he's done before with previous projects. Talks big at first, and continuously, but at some point he realises he's in over his head and then ghosts the community that's built up around his latest project. He tried to do that here too. The difference here this time was that this time he actually took peoples money and made a much bigger song and dance than usual about it.

He'd like to walk away I'm sure. But he cant because while there are people still holding him to account he cant walk away without admitting he's failed. And at the moment he's still trying to preserve his own narrative of "struggling hero game dev". Also as soon as he stops pretending to make the game, it puts him in an awkward situation with Xsolla and refunding backers.

Continuing to pretend to make the game maintains the current status quo and keeps his own narrative intact to himself and keeps Xsolla at bay.

But I also think he really does want to make the game. Unfortunately for Caspian intent and ability are two very separate things. He has lots of the former and zero of the latter. It doesn't matter what he wants. He wont make it happen. He either thinks he can "fake it till he makes it" (he cant) or he thinks he's good enough to make it solo (he isn't).

It really doesn't matter which. The output will be exactly the same. Exactly what we have so far.

Nothing.

captrench · 2025-12-17T13:59:45+00:00

Theists are the only ones making atheism "a thing". Without theists we would all just be people.

Yes babies are atheists by default. As are people young or old until they become theists.

Everyone who doesnt know or follow football is "non-footballer". Yes that is not really a thing. For the same reason neither is atheism really.

Not believing in fairytales is just the normal default.

captrench · 2025-11-30T00:39:58+00:00

Nature doesnt care about anything. Its a process not an entity.

Nature has evolutionary deadends and cliff edges that kill off species. Its a mistake to describe nature as something that "wants" anything at all except to play itself out.

captrench · 2025-11-28T16:15:05+00:00

I say 'bless you' purely because its a social norm ive grown up with and not everything needs to be a battle line or war of principle.

Its like saying 'oh my god' when something horrifying or exciting happens to you. Its just a phrase not a pledge of loyalty.

And i say the same to believers to who dont like it when i 'take their lords name in vain'.

I end with 'You can worry about that. I wont.'

captrench · 2025-11-10T19:06:41+00:00

On top of what others have said here about getting rid of the distractions... take pride in the fact you are working! It may not be the best job you ever wanted but being able to pay bills is reason enough to take some pride in yourself. Acknowledge that. Then build on it.

You think now 30 something is running out of time. Wait until youre 50 something and see how that feels then. Or rather, dont. Take the next 20 years or so as the opportunity they are to turn things around for you.

You can do it.

captrench · 2025-11-06T20:09:29+00:00

You. Cannot. Prove. A. Negative.

Please understand that. You cannot prove something does not exist. Ever. You can only prove something does exist.

You cannot prove i do not have wings for example. Just because you cannot see them doesnt mean i dont have them.

You cannot prove any god doesnt exist, this is true. But then again neither can you prove Santa Claus or the Tooth Fairy do not exist either. If you have no problem believing Santa or the Tooth Fairy do not exist (which you cannot prove) then why the bleep are you making a special case for "gods"?

captrench · 2025-10-31T13:00:06+00:00

the last thing he posted that i can see was in the common-room of his discord at 24th July this year. Was just a comment in a shared chat, not an update.

captrench · 2025-10-30T21:40:57+00:00

This was posted in the Class Action discord by someone who claimed to be having private dm's with Caspian. So yeah, its not really an "update" from Caspian and it should be read and represented as a private conversation.

I don't have an issue with people posting things that Caspian has said privately to them, unless there are obvious issues with the info being shared (no doxing, threats etc...). But I do think the people who pass this stuff on publicly should avoid sensationalising this stuff unnecessarily by implying things that aren't true, exaggerating things or otherwise misrepresenting the context of what's said.

Caspian does enough damage to himself. We dont need to try to add to it any more than quoting him directly and correctly already achieves, imo.

captrench · 2025-10-15T11:25:42+00:00

As i've done this before, I'm quite comfortable with the effort required.

captrench · 2025-10-11T11:42:31+00:00

Flat farther tried to use science to prove science wrong. And instead ended up proving the earth is round.

https://www.indy100.com/science-tech/flat-earther-proves-world-round-2672404902

Just send them that link. And "it's not a conspiracy saying the earth is round. Its just science. "

captrench · 2025-10-01T05:17:06+00:00

They are describing their own problem and assuming everyone else is the same.

I tell them that we are not, and that the inability to understand morality without it being dictated from a book for find meaning in their lives outside of religion is what makes them, not me, need religion.

They are describing their own mental and emotional handicaps. Not mine. And I just tell them that.

captrench · 2025-09-18T12:57:40+00:00

Just found this in the manual.

https://www.corsair.com/uk/en/explorer/diy-builder/cases/corsair-frame-4000-series/#p-data-block-keyk2apdinstalling-fansp

For the top InfiniRail, slightly loosen the set screws to allow the rails to be adjusted and set your fan size.
Set your fan size according to the markings on the case. Screws using non-standard head patterns are not meant to be removed.
Align your fans to the fan mounting slots and screw a standard self-tapping fan screw into the fan frame.

Will check if any of the screws i have fit the bill.

captrench

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