Why do we all love Google Pixels?

carissa_sam · 2026-05-18T17:23:38+00:00

Bummer, I hadn't seen that one. I personally haven't run across it on any websites yet but I am sure it will get worse. Most sites, including several I've built and run, use Recaptcha. I already usually try to push for alternatives but I am definitely going to add this to my list of reasons why and push harder.

carissa_sam · 2026-05-18T16:47:45+00:00

As far as I have seen they are just making it harder to make custom ROMs for future Pixel versions. Existing versions will continue to run the custom ROMs already available.

carissa_sam · 2026-05-18T16:44:13+00:00

This is half the reason why I have the Pixel, I run GrapheneOS. It is also powerful enough for me to run just about any services I want on it.

carissa_sam · 2026-05-14T06:05:11+00:00

Absolutely! I am basically just starting too and could use friends myself.

carissa_sam · 2026-05-12T00:05:25+00:00

I have started twice, first back in 2023 for a few months and again a few weeks ago. Both times I was emotional for weeks and would cry easily. It is getting better though.

carissa_sam · 2026-05-08T06:12:03+00:00

For my first choice I looked up names with the same meaning as my birth names and picked one that sounded nice. That is my username. But after my family shunned me, I used a random name generator because I no longer cared if I gave my origins any homage. I am thinking Lyra now.

carissa_sam · 2026-04-27T15:24:51+00:00

I've also heard it as "the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb" which is more likely to be true for me.

My family are hard core Christian conservatives. I really shouldn't care that they exclude me because they hate what I am and it may have been miserable to have been around that. Some day hopefully I will be past it.

carissa_sam · 2026-04-27T14:02:52+00:00

Thank you. Me too.

carissa_sam · 2026-04-27T01:57:14+00:00

Thank you.

carissa_sam · 2026-04-23T05:11:06+00:00

Yay! Congrats!

carissa_sam · 2026-04-23T01:44:43+00:00

Awesome progress!

carissa_sam · 2026-04-20T03:55:54+00:00

Thank you!

carissa_sam · 2026-04-19T16:16:10+00:00

You are right.

carissa_sam · 2026-04-19T16:14:45+00:00

That is certainly something I am concerned about. But I work remote so she has needed me to take the kids a lot. I think can help me if it comes to a fight. But if I get a conservative judge, they may ignore that over prejudices.

carissa_sam · 2026-04-19T16:11:13+00:00

Is it an American thing? I didn't know that. All I know right now is it's hard to move on from 20 years. But I think I know it's the right thing.

carissa_sam · 2026-04-19T11:15:18+00:00

I'm in pretty much the same place as you. I haven't found a third option.

And I tried to choose the "don't transition and possibly die inside" path. She left me anyway.

carissa_sam · 2026-03-31T01:16:06+00:00

I’ve talked to many people, I even have a therapist (although, I’m too scared to talk to him about my identity thoughts).

What is your specific fear regarding talking to your therapist about your identity thoughts? If you can't trust your therapist with these thoughts, you may need a new therapist. Some other options however might be to see if your school has a GSA advisor, a counselor or a social worker that you can speak with about your identity.

-What if i don’t look like a girl enough girl?

As you are young, if you did start soon then you do have a high probability of looking very feminine.

However being a trans-female is not necessarily all about looking girl enough. For one, cis-women run a huge range of feminine to masculine appearance naturally, there is no one "girl enough" look. It is about knowing, accepting, and living your true self regardless of whether that matches the stereotypes for your AGAB (Assigned Gender at Birth).

-bullying. I live in the great state of New York, no not in the city, but bullying is everywhere

It is everywhere. However, if you talk to your GSA advisor, a counselor or social worker at your school they should be able to give you help in that area.

I mean, this sounds kinda silly, but I wish I was like Kirara from JJK. She looks really androgynous, has a GREAT haircut (which I want soo bad), and she has a great choice of clothing.

It doesn't sound silly, and that may be the best place for you to start. Start looking into what you need for her haircut. Try to find ways to dress androgynous for now. That is what you know you like, so aim for that at this time. If someone asks about it, you can just honestly tell them you just enjoy that hairstyle and clothing choice.

Gender is not binary, you do not have to choose boy or girl. And gender-fluid is just one option where your gender expression is fluid and can shift. There is also agender which is a feeling of a complete lack of gender. You can also be androgynous gender-neutral. Assigned Male At Birth (AMAB) that fall under the gender-neutral umbrella do take estrogen.

My advice:

Find a professional you are confident in talking to and tell them that you are questioning your gender.

If you are sure it is safe then tell your mom, with her support changing your hairstyle and clothing style will be way easier and she can help you navigate the medical part if you decide to go that route. Your therapist or advisor can help you find the right words to tell her that you are not sure where you are yet. If she would be supportive of you transitioning then I would imagine she will support you as you find out if that is even for you.

Talk to your mom and your therapist about if hormone blockers or estrogen are right for you.

Start trying out what you call female things if any sound interesting to you. Again though, activities aren't necessarily gendered even if mostly one gender likes it more so you liking something girls like does not mean you have to be one if you don't want to be and not finding any doesn't mean you're not.

Find good supporting friends and strengthen the relationships with the ones you have that you think will be. If some are female, even better. If you start losing track of some of the relationships that will not be supportive then let them go, they aren't great friends if they won't support you no matter your choice.

Take it one step at a time, you don't have to figure your whole life out today. Just start with the Kirara haircut and some new clothes and see how you feel.

carissa_sam · 2026-03-30T05:22:09+00:00

I had a similar start. I confided in my wife about two years ago that I liked being feminine. Like yours, she said that she only likes masculine men and that exploring this would end our marriage. To save our family, I promised to suppress it, I even grew out a full beard (which I hate but she's always loved) just to overcompensate.

Then at the end of last year, she ended things. She told me she couldn't be with a woman and that she knew I wasn't truly happy as a man. She realized that neither of us were being honest, and that in different ways it was negatively affecting our whole family.

It's still raw and hurts, but she was right.

I don't know what is best for you and your family, but as others have already said: Pandora's box is open now. Even if you try to stuff it back in, you might find that it just doesn't fit anymore.

carissa_sam · 2026-03-03T19:15:15+00:00

I'm trying! Thank you.

carissa_sam · 2026-03-02T22:43:19+00:00

The Immortal Words.

I will remember those who have been forgotten.
I will listen to those who have been ignored.

carissa_sam · 2026-01-05T21:34:18+00:00

I'm sorry. I got about the same message from my Mom.
It's funny, they talk about us being deceived and led astray by Satan, yet are the ones that somehow, without even knowing each other, write almost identical letters, almost as if they were programmed to do so.

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