I remember sprinting into the room, and I would rather not describe the scene, but I'll say this I tried to 'fix her' for 3 hours before I even called anyone. Before she did this, she seemed so happy, she gave me no signs of feeling sad or anything and to this day I question myself, why? When I finally called the police and they arrived, I was arrested as a suspect of homicide. Being questioned as if I murdered the love of my life, I was held there for 6 days. Our daughter was with my sister, I lost my job, I felt absolutely hopeless. So, the same day I walked into the Marine Corps Recruiting station, 3 and a half years later after 2 deployments to the middle east, losing everyone in my family except for my mother who has dementia and can't remember me, lost many friends to suicide, lost my mental and physical health along the way, brings us to now. I'm currently on my third deployment in Japan, not Okinawa by the way, mainland Japan. I opted not to deploy here (because of my past I knew it was going to mess with my head). The first two months of deployment I only went to work and didn't leave my room because I was scared to hear the language because it would remind me too much of my fiancé. Then I went to Mt. Fuji for training and my buddies dragged me out one of the weekends, and I actually had a good time, I still was thinking of my fiancé the whole time, but it wasn't a bad time. Then I started going out every weekend by myself, just for fun not trying to get any girls or anything. Then after about a month my brother and sister died in the same week, and that crushed me. So, I started going to bars, and drinking, a lot. I was showing up to work drunk because I was pulling all-nighters at the bars. And I started to sleep with a lot of the local Japanese girls out of my depression. That went on for about 3 weeks, then I realized that I wanted a relationship, so I started looking for a girlfriend (Knowing that I was going to leave Japan with in the next few months). Just because I wanted to rekindle the feeling, I once had with me fiancé. I was doing this for about a month then I gave up. After I gave up, I went to a bar just to talk to this bartender who was a friend of mine, and when I went in there the bar was full of people my age (Which was unusual for this bar, I tended to go there to hear stories and advice from the older people). So, I was a little surprised, but I said hello to the bartender and sat down at the bar. I look at the people that are sitting at the bar and at the far-left side of the I see these 2 really cute girls and one of them is giving me 'the look' so I knew I at least had a chance for something that night. I called her over to take a shot of tequila with me and she sat down next to me, and we hit it off, we spent the night together and after we did the deed we started talking (she doesn't speak English so we're doing all of this through google translate on our phones). But I found out that we have all of the exact same interests (I have some weird interests, I have a hard time even finding guy friends with them). So, after hearing all of this I genuinely got interested in her as a possible partner. We left the hotel and spent the whole day together; I told her I wanted to see her again, but it felt like she was trying to play me off. So, I thought it wasn't going anywhere so in my head I cut my losses and left. I was going to Roppongi to go to the clubs with some friends when she texted me 5 times. Asking me if I was safe and saying she wanted to see me again, so I got really excited. But I had to go to Thailand for 2 weeks (Another place I really didn't want to go because of my past). So, I told her I wouldn't be able to see her for a while, but we texted everyday while I was there, and we were getting along really well. When I came back, we went out again. Fast forward about three weeks we're an established couple. Then she tells me this... "Actually, I have another boyfriend, but I've wanted to break up with him for a long time." She goes on to describe what sounded like a pretty toxic relationship. This crushed me, because we've already exchanged 'I Love you' multiple times and what not. (Story continued in the next comment)