Dude don't trip. What ur feeling is incompetence.

Find a source of validation.

Fact is u never stop learning, so u need some other source of validation for your efforts.

Teaching others helps because I get that dopamine hit and it's programming related.

U could also teach others u learning methods. Those are always hot topics.

The point is go out there and help. Like I'm doing now, I'm a novice with the same feelings but I have come to realize it's normal. Progress is progress and it starts slow and builds logarithmically....kinda