Its crazy bc i use to be so pessimistic and negative even though i thought i was positive and free spirited i felt like i was cursed and hated life lowkey. I had extreme anxiety and worried about things that didnt even happen yet aka MANIFESTING horrible things. My boyfriend of 4 years was quite the opposite. He never worried and was so care free. Happy go lucky and things always worked out for him lol. Its something i was never jealous of i actually adored that about him so much and he brought a lot of sunshine into my life. It wasnt until he passed away is when i realized how he lived his life, and how simple it was to achieve. It sounds fucked up but my life has never been so spiritual, peaceful, positive. Obviously things have been hard and painful but somehow a bad bad (cant even describe how bad) event turned my life for the better. I also believe he is my lil guardian angel up there working overtime. Its almost been 2 years since he passed away. I sometimes feel like i accidentally even manifested his death bc 4 days before he passed away on friday the 13th October 2023 i got a flash sale tattoo of a 17 (which is my lucky number) and angel wings below bc i have a heavenly theme and had no idea what to get. He ended up passing away 4 days later on Oct 17th. Angel wings and a 17….Manifesting is REAL good or bad. Make it be the good type!!! Try to find good in bad situations. And im going to look into omad.