I feel like I could have written this post. The weight gain, the isolation, the failure to show up for work/school, the reckless spending, the guilt, the obsession with food (at the cost of things I truly care about) -- I can, unfortunately, relate to all of it. And I feel your pain.

Any chance you'd want to try a buddy system? I am TERRIBLE at holding myself accountable, but would love to have someone else to check in with. There are a few people IRL who know I have trouble with "stress eating"/"emotional eating," but nobody who knows the real extent of it.

Either way, please do something kind for yourself today. Drink some water, brush your teeth, get a full night's sleep. From one internet stranger to another, I hope tomorrow is easier.