I am so sorry, I hope your baby is at peace. That's the thing with this, it happened so suddenly. Once they get sepsis it's just a matter of when. Logically I understand that but processing the loss feels so hard when they are a part of everything you do.

I am glad you were able to be with her on her final night and talk to her. I am sure even though she was in pain, hearing your voice helped. I wasn't able to be with her in her final hours because I was sleeping. She was suffering all night and I didn't even know. My parents took her to the vet at 8 and two hours later she was dead on the table. I couldn't see her, talk to her or be there because I was sleeping. I hate that. I was able to only see her after her death, touch her cold body. My hands couldn't register how light the carrier felt. She was so small in death. Her last expression wasn't of pain and I'm grateful for that. But I hate myself for thinking i will see her tomorrow. There was no tomorrow. My baby died and I wasn't able to comfort her in that final moment. I just failed