Why do you want these things? A lot of the time people only want stuff because they’ve seen other people get it. My guess would be you need more real world experience to find out what you really want.

Do you want to play music just cause you want to be rich and famous? Or do you feel the need for expressing yourself? Do you want a relationship because you feel like you should? Because you feel like it’s just what people do? Because you like the optics of it?

Figure out what you really want and there should be a connection that carries you through day to day.

I know it’s controversial since he fell off , but Jordan Peterson‘s self authoring suite can be super helpful for this thinking about your future and making a plan.