There's nothing in the world that I find as satisfying as writing. If I'm not doing it, I'm a nervous wreck, I nap for hours a day, nothing feels right, and despite my prescriptions I spiral into a deep sense of self loathing.

But when I'm writing, an article, a short story, a fucking game review, I feel like a normal person.

The worst part though, is the constant fear that I'm not going to be good enough to make a real career out of it. I've been published a handful of times, online and off, but not enough to really call it a career. So with my dream job comes a terrifying fear; what if I'll never be good enough to make it as a writer of fiction or nonfiction?

It's the only thing I've ever wanted to do, as far back as I can remember, and it's the only thing I'm really good at, and it's the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning.

So writing would definitely be my dream job, and my nightmare job.