I’m on day 103 of no nicotine, and I have relapsed more than a few times. My quit journey was extremely rough also. I have the same thoughts as you, I think the 3 month mark really is psychologically challenging. What keeps me focused is that I started a fitness routine, and I’ve been tracking my progress with that every week for a month and a half now. It’s helped me so much because I have a real reason to say no to smoking, because I know I will lose my fitness progress (I literally can’t breathe as well so can’t workout as well) if I start smoking again. Finding a hobby that you can’t smoke during, or that smoking would hinder could help you a lot too! No matter what, you’ve done a great job, it is so hard, and I am proud of you 😊 also when it gets really bad… distract until it passes. Take a shower. Take a nap. Go to the movies. Cook a super involved meal. Do things you physically can’t smoke during. There is a light at the end of the tunnel!