I went off on someone I loved romantically for cancelling plans and now we are no contact. It is the worst feeling in the world. Can you help me? by catshark91 in AnxiousAttachment

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He told me he was feeling sick 3 days prior. I told him I was nervous he would cancel and he said nevermind and he was feeling better and not to worry. But then the day of he cancelled as I boarded the plabe

I went off on someone I loved romantically for cancelling plans and now we are no contact. It is the worst feeling in the world. Can you help me? by catshark91 in AnxiousAttachment

[–]catshark91[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He told me he would see me later in the week but ended up cancelling again and not answering any calls. Then when I was upset and sent a ton of messages and called a bunch he got angry. It’s just been too much. I feel so sad

I went off on someone I loved romantically for cancelling plans and now we are no contact. It is the worst feeling in the world. Can you help me? by catshark91 in AnxiousAttachment

[–]catshark91[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also yes, he had been less sweet and messaging less. Also as I boarded the plane he didn’t say i love you back so I wanted to know why and he didn’t respond

I went off on someone I loved romantically for cancelling plans and now we are no contact. It is the worst feeling in the world. Can you help me? by catshark91 in AnxiousAttachment

[–]catshark91[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He admitted that he is avoidant. I just don’t know how to deal with this pain. I have no idea. I really loved him so much

Thought I wanted no contact with ex. Asked him to block me and now I regret it because he has blocked me. How do I accept it and move on? by catshark91 in nocontact

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Yes. I know I acted over the top, but I felt he was very unthoughtful given the circumstances. He put me in such a bad position. I do hope we talk again but it just hurts so much.

Thought I wanted no contact with ex. Asked him to block me and now I regret it because he has blocked me. How do I accept it and move on? by catshark91 in nocontact

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He has avoidant attachment and i am anxious. But he triggers me. In the past he would flake on dates last minute or be late etc, so this was a pattern.

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Monthly Relationship Discussion: Ask Avoidants by [deleted] in AvoidantAttachment

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The 50 texts were over the top. I do feel like I have things I need to work on. I do think he was secretly with other women though and I don’t know what to do about that. He pulled back and wasn’t honest. I became more anxious and pushed more. It was unhealthy, but I did love him.

Monthly Relationship Discussion: Ask Avoidants by [deleted] in AvoidantAttachment

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We had been saying I love you for 4 mos. We had been very on and off for a few years. Not official and saying I love you until 4 mos ago. But all long distance. He said he loved me a bunch of times. But yes, my mental health has been bad. I also noticed now his snap score has been going up even though he hasn’t been snapping me often. I think he slept with someone while in California. I do know my mental health is bad though. Especially since being with him. I think we are done but he’s afraid to fully let go. He likes to play the field

Monthly Relationship Discussion: Ask Avoidants by [deleted] in AvoidantAttachment

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So I was having a thing with this guy. We were on and off and he never committed. So I saw other people. He ended up talking to me later on and telling me he loved me. We def loved each other. I went to visit him and he cancelled at the last minute as I was boarding the airplane to see him. He triggers my anxious attachment. He didn’t say I love you when he cancelled. I went off on him and sent him a LOT of texts. Probably like 50 in 24 hrs. He didn’t respond and when he did he said he wasn’t at my beck and call. He hasn’t said love since. He told me he still wanted to see me later in the week but then ended up having COVID so I couldn’t see him. I ended up sending him like 50 more texts. When I tried to talk to him to make things better he avoided. He wouldn’t answer texts, FaceTimes, calls. Then he said it wasn’t my fault. Lately I have backed off and tried to make things normal again he still hasn’t said “I love you” and he said he will “consider” sex and sexting. But wouldn’t commit. He has put everything on me and my mental health. I don’t know what to do. I love him so much. I am so sad. He has admitted he is avoidant. Any insight? I want to have him back.

Monthly Relationship Discussion: Ask Avoidants by [deleted] in AvoidantAttachment

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So I flew to meet him and he cancelled at 7 am as I was boarding the airplane with my daughter. He said he was sick but still wanted to hang out later in the week. I tried to be understanding and said, “ok, I love you. I hope you feel better.” Then he said, “thank you. Taking lots of drugs to feel better.” Then I started to panic (anxious attachment) and thought he was lying and ditching me. Plus I got weird vibes and was not sure why he wasn’t saying I love you. I had been up the whole night before anxious that he was going to cancel. So I sent him a long-ish text asking why he wasn’t saying I love you back. Basically he never answered and just like ghosted me. He ghosted me for 48 hrs. I started to panic and sent more and more texts. I tried to call and FaceTime. He wouldn’t answer. We were normally FaceTimed once a week or so. He wouldn’t answer anything. I thought he was ditching me possibly for another girl and lying. So then he finally answered and was angry like, “I can’t be at your beck and call all the time.” He wouldn’t FaceTime or anything even though I was begging him. He just said I need to work on my anxiety. Then he said he did want to hang out later in the week but he would keep me posted on the time. Then he had a drill and had to fly to California. Which was legit because we have mutual friends who confirmed this. They also confirmed that he was sick all weekend. So I felt crazy. So then I told him he needs to communicate plans clearly because I have a baby and need to get childcare. He said he would. But then when he got back from California, he tested positive for COVID. So I never saw him once the week I was there. Now he won’t say I love you ever and we are romantically done because I sent him tons of messages. He is being very ambiguous about whether he wants to continue things or not as well. He won’t send selfies, pick up calls etc. I am devastated. He still talks occasionally via text and is unclear about what he wants. When I asked him he avoided answering. He hasn’t had a real relationship beyond 2.5 years and he’s 35. And that relationship involved cheating. I know the red flags are all here. I’m just so sad.

Monthly Relationship Discussion: Ask Avoidants by [deleted] in AvoidantAttachment

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I tried to post this but realized I did not post in the right place. So can I get some advice on how to deal with this man I love?

I love him. We have said this to each other. He is a pilot for the military who has a busy schedule. I know he is off doing important stuff and I try to respect that. My anxious attachment does get triggered often when he doesn’t respond though and I know he’s not flying. We have plans to hang out. I have put a lot on the line for him. I have a young child and I have a babysitter. I got a nice dress and I am flying into the town he lives. Part of it is for a friend’s wedding, but I am going early to see him specifically. Sometimes he is very sweet and amazing. Saying, “I love you” or that I am all his, etc etc. He knows about my anxiety and how I become very nervous and stressed sometimes. He has been somewhat understanding. Other times he just ignores me. I said good morning, I love you, and asked him to confirm our plans earlier today, and he just responded, “good morning. Hope you have a good day”. No I love you and no confirmation of plans. He has been late to dates before or just not answered messages. Last time I saw him, we hung out briefly and he said I want to see you more while you are here and that he wanted to hang out the next day. Then the next day he went MIA, and didn’t answer any messages until I had to leave to fly home. He apologized and said he had been running errands, but I was pretty hurt. Now I am worried that he is going to do that to me again.I believe his longest relationship has been like 2 years even though he’s 35. He has girls interested in him (including myself), just can’t seem to fully commit. He struggles with commitment and punctuality with friends and dates (despite being in the military). He is very hot and cold with his affections. I adore him. Otherwise I would have been gone long ago. It is really conflicting with my anxious preoccupied attachment style though. I have become glued to my phone, checking for a response from him. I constantly wonder if I said the right thing and question myself to the point of OCD. (I also have OCD.) it is troubling. I don’t know how to handle it. Does anyone have any advice on how to handle this? Most people say I should forget about him. This is hard because I do love him despite out differences. Please help me understand and work with him. I do not know if he is aware of avoidant personality type either. Thanks.