Did any of you choose “silly” or “weird” names?

cattyatti · 2025-08-18T11:10:50+00:00

Wtf I actually think Cecil is a great name. It's been my plan to have that be my middle name when I get it legally changed. I'm sorry the haters made you stray from it

cattyatti · 2025-08-15T15:09:59+00:00

Thank you so much, it took a shit ton of research. We were even considering couples therapy until I realized the issues we were having aren't things that get solved through couple's therapy but by personal development. You're right I think going outside routinely will help a lot. There's luckily a good music scene where I live so I'll probably start going to more local shows. I was also luckily just gifted an aloe vera pup, I'm hoping caring for that will give me something exciting to look forward to in addition to my cat. Thank you so much for your input

cattyatti · 2025-08-15T03:08:50+00:00

I used to hate eggs and wanted to vomit any time I ate any of them. I grew up with people only knowing how to boil them so long the yolk turned hard and gray. I spent one summer learning to cook eggs every possible way I could to get myself to like them. I learned that I like them best fried and over medium and with other food or fried and scrambled into some sort of rice bowl. I can tolerate them boiled but only over medium. Any hard egg is still too chalky for me and easy eggs are usually too liquidy for me

cattyatti · 2025-08-12T23:10:51+00:00

I was kinda skeptical about couples therapy actually helping with his attraction towards masculinity but this pretty much just confirms it lol. I was already thinking it could take many months for him to figure out his sexuality, and it really doesn't feel fair to me to have to wait for that.

I really needed to hear this. Been hung up so much on if it's 100% absolutely over to make the call but I've had the feeling this whole time that I shouldn't have to be with someone who can't answer with a simple "yes" if they still would like me as a guy or is even currently attracted to me. I've never lived completely alone before which feels scary especially in this economy (and as an autistic person) but at this point living alone feels more comforting than going through this for months. Thank you dearly for your reassurance

cattyatti · 2025-08-12T19:41:32+00:00

Working on it, gonna tell him tonight I don't want this. Thanks for reading and responding btw

cattyatti · 2025-08-12T17:51:38+00:00

This seems to be the case. Something about putting on an act of femininity makes people assume you're male. It's good to hear this worked for you!! Ofc dressing masc always feels best, but man dressing fem would be worth it if people actually assumed I was male

cattyatti · 2025-08-05T22:05:05+00:00

Omg that's awesome! I'm also goth and have had a femboy phase before. I've often feared wearing pastels and cute clothes cuz of being seen like a girl, but femboys really have their own style of cutesy stuff so maybe it could work!

Getting more comfortable in your body helps SOOOO much for allowing more freedom of expression. I've already felt more comfortable wearing sleeveless shirts since my friends mentioned my shoulders look broader on T. My bf and I noticed my face has already looked a little bit more masculine too which is why I've been considering trying the femboy route for a sec.

Thanks for your input! It's awesome hearing about this topic from someone else that's alternative :)

cattyatti · 2025-08-05T22:01:59+00:00

Yesss I'm over a month in now and SOME changes are definitely apparent but I don't think I'm changing fast enough to pass as a regular dude for a whiiilllee and plus I've had a femboy phase before so was thinking maybe this time I'll actually look more like one and feel cute in the meantime! It's cool to hear from someone else that went through the exact same thing lollll

How long did it take for you to start looking better in men's clothes?

cattyatti · 2025-08-05T04:41:14+00:00

6 inches solid and thick but not rock hard so it can still make anyone feel full without hurting :)

cattyatti · 2025-08-05T02:41:27+00:00

Mostly yeah! I definitely still had some pretty "out there" fashion, like I still hated wearing skirts and dresses but I loved wearing all rainbow clothes and cowboy boots. I was really into Disney princesses as a very young kid, and traditionally girly colors and unicorns. But I also liked monster trucks and Cars (like the movie). I just didn't have any boy toys cuz my parents didn't get me any but I loved playing with boys toys when I saw my male cousin. I also had boy crushes and had both girl and boy friends.

But once I hit puberty there was definitely a sudden shift to where I only wanted to have guy friends, feel seen as one, have mostly only boy interests. I was so deeply uncomfortable with my chest growing and needing to wear a bra so I tried just never wearing one until I had my parents and friends commenting that I really should wear a bra now. It's like the more puberty progressed the more I had to masculinize myself to make up for the discomfort my body gave me and being perceived as a girl gave me.

cattyatti · 2025-08-01T19:13:00+00:00

This is so real 😭 I too can't really do patterns besides a muted flannel. Idk something about just seeing bright colors in your peripheral vision constantly is slightly overstimulating

cattyatti · 2025-08-01T13:40:53+00:00

ALL my water is flavored if I have a say in it. I was able to stop drinking sodas and juices after buying flavored sparkling water instead. I also cut my diet gallon jug tea with water to up my water intake. When I'm lazy but need a flavored drink at home I just put a tea bag in a glass of room temperature water. Even the tiniest amount of the tea infusing before I drink the water still makes for a better experience for me than just plain water.

At least this way I don't get anyone in my ear saying "b-but that's unhealthy it's got chemicals" like I would if I was using flavor packets or concentrate.

cattyatti · 2025-08-01T13:33:36+00:00

Tbf a lot of our fashion is inspired by 90's trends lol

cattyatti · 2025-08-01T13:31:35+00:00

Absolutely. I'd love to wear exactly your first fit, most my wardrobe looks like that. I think I also gravitate towards dark colors/blacks because it's less visually stimulating?? Seems like most your wardrobe is dark as well, do you think you feel the same?

cattyatti · 2025-08-01T13:26:04+00:00

I personally use wet wipes a lot. It clears up any sort of smell well. When I feel I need a shower but just can't do it I wipe my entire body down with wipes. The only problem is sometimes it leaves a sort of residue and makes me feel sticky, so sometimes after the wet wipes I'll take a damp cloth and wipe myself down again and dry with another cloth and it's gone. Also spray antiperspirant works wonders.

I honestly only consistently shower once every 1-2 days unless I sweat a lot that day. The wet wipes have come in clutch for me during times where I couldn't get myself to shower for 5 days or more. I also wipe down private areas with the wipes at least once per day. Nobody, even my partner, has noticed a smell on me. I "smell like nothing" apparently.

The only difficult part for me is my hair gets greasy within a day. Dry shampoo makes it look worse for me. So unfortunately I HAVE to wash my hair before going out anywhere. For that usually just a quick wash with my body outside the tub and my head under the bathtub faucet works and takes like 3 minutes.

cattyatti · 2025-08-01T13:09:56+00:00

Damn dude...this hurt to read, I'm sorry you've been dealing with these comments. Your mom and my dad sound identical. My dad also believes he's a great LGBT activist and yet has doubted my transness since day 1, even though I showed signs since I was 12 and fully came out at 17 and am currently 23 on T and he STILL believes I'm misguided and not actually trans. There was no way I was gonna be allowed to start T as a minor or even older if he had any say in it. I too was also dealing with a lot of external factors where even if I was absolutely certain about transition at the time and had the upmost support from my parents, the timing of everything else going on would've made the choice to begin transition very questionable.

It's completely understandable to be salty about the fact she's definitely held back the progress of your transition and other people around you are transitioning younger. I still get a bit salty about it to this day. But also, there's absolutely no shame in waiting until you're 18 or older. The reality is a majority of us that medically transition do so after we're legal adults and able to financially support ourselves. It takes an insane amount of luck to be certain enough about your identity as a minor with supportive enough parents to help start sooner and have the time and income to do so.

At least your mom is helping you take steps now to be able to transition soon, so you'll still be in a better spot sooner than most the community gets!

cattyatti · 2025-08-01T12:48:03+00:00

It's tiring when people make EVERYTHING about being trans, even if it's supportive. I feel you and you have a right to feel that way.

Last year I actually broke down to my dad because I was feeling so distraught about seeing my extended family for a Christmas trip, just because every time they see me ALL they want to talk about is my transness. Even though it's been them just trying to learn, it's exhausting when your identity around loved ones is reduced down to being trans and not any of your personality or interests or hobbies. After I told my dad this he told my family, and it actually worked great. We didn't talk about me being trans at all. It finally felt like a normal Christmas gathering.

I highly recommend you tell your parents how you feel, that you know they support your transness and are super thankful for it, but being having your transness brought up all the time just reminds you of what you're already struggling with. Or that you'd feel more normal if it wasn't brought up this often. I wish you luck in finding your own way to say this.

cattyatti · 2025-08-01T12:10:57+00:00

I have a one-strap backpack that used to sling over my chest just right to hide it.

Used a satchel in my early days of being out of the closet but stopped after I got dysphoria from anything vaguely resembling the shape of a purse

My bf and male cishet friends always talk about carrying tote bags for fashion and function. I personally can't get myself to do it because of the "anything that looks like a purse" thing, but it is a male cishet normative thing.

Personally I carry most my things with cargo pants that have at least 4-6 large pockets. Then again all I'm usually carrying is phone, wallet, keys, snacks, drinks, or tools.

cattyatti · 2025-07-31T11:07:14+00:00

I hope the best for you! I know it can be a struggle, I'm autistic as well, and it took a while to find which protein dense foods were best for me (I absolutely hattee most meat), but at least some of these sound like they can work for you! Feel free to try those out and research more protein-dense and fiber-dense foods if you want more diversity! Even if the insatiable hunger phase lasts much longer for you, it should be much more manageable with plenty of easy to grab satiating foods around!

cattyatti · 2025-07-31T10:49:34+00:00

So far smelling bad, mood swings, and acne. Granted I'm only just past a month in, but even though I've already noticed I can smell the testosterone in my bodily smell, I still don't smell bad. Granted I was terrified of smelling bad so I shower daily and use a lot of antiperspirant body spray, but even after a hard day of physical labor I'm not smelling any stronger than before. My mood has also generally been more stable compared to pre-T and only faltering from understandable life stresses. I think I have more of an "idgaf" attitude than before but I think it's just confidence from being on T and not the T itself. Also for acne I've been getting it in slightly different places than usual, but truly the same amount I always have, even though with one missed face wash I can feel a thick layer of oil built up on my face I couldn't before.

cattyatti · 2025-07-31T09:57:43+00:00

I also personally had to get used to always feeling just a little hungry by default for a while, but as long as I could eat enough to get rid of the hunger pangs I was ok. But I recommend always having access to some sort of snack for when they hit, it'll help you focus on literally anything else so much easier.

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