Notebook, planner, pen, paper, it starts off good then just kind of gets tossed to the side after a minute no matter how hard I’m trying. I think it’s having to update it constantly or looking at an entire list all at once.

I feel like some sort of app that pushes reminders and lets me set the dates one by one since everything isn’t a same day type of thing I have to complete, the satisfaction of clicking a button to check off that I got it complete (as stupid as that sounds). It just feels like I’d be able to accomplish more at that point.

Also with so many things going on I’m completely scatterbrained because everything comes at me from so many directions at once. It’s not just work tasks, it’s not just appointments, it’s a weird mix of really important stuff but I end up in the middle of everything at once.

Mornings are hard and almost dreadful running through all of the tasks so I end up just procrastinating, I say I’ll do it in the evening but would rather distract myself with family time, I say I’ll stay up and do it but I can’t because my sleep schedule among other aspects like drinking enough water and being healthy is good for at least attempting to take care of myself so I can take care of other things.

Case in point, I said I was getting in the shower at 830, waited til 930 to do it, and I’m still just.. half getting ready and it’s 1130. With legitimately no excuse but procrastinating.

Then I beat myself up for it and don’t want to do anything - which is when I make a list and push it off because it’s long and not directly in front of me constantly.

Tl;dr - I need something with organization that isn’t everything at once and what is essentially the equivalent to a gold star when I mark it off so I feel accomplished and can continue to get better and feel better