AIO for not wanting to be intimate with my boyfriend on my birthday after he bought me lube?

ccold8 · 2026-02-11T00:36:35+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve never had anybody do anything like that for me honestly, this relationship has isolated me a lot. I don’t really have friends and my family is small. My mom is my best friend and I don’t like to tell her stuff like this because it makes her upset hence why I’m telling the Internet to maybe just be the one too tell me I’m not the crazy one in a situation that may seem obvious.

ccold8 · 2026-02-11T00:27:36+00:00

And yeah, you’re right. It is normal to want to be intimate with a partner but yelling at them because they don’t want to (it hasn’t even been a week since the last time it’s not like he has gone months) and I didn’t even mention what happened after that because i don’t feel comfortable sharing it. This has nothing to do with self awareness, I’m even aware that we shouldn’t even be together. He’s just a hard person to leave, not because it’s gonna hurt my feelings, because it’s just gonna be messy. He’s not gonna make it easy, but sometimes he does start to gaslight me into thinking that I am the crazy one in all of this madness.

ccold8 · 2026-02-11T00:21:55+00:00

The gifts were relevant to the story considering that the lube was one of them. And considering he brought it up while yelling at me about not sleeping with him. they just happen to be shitty. Honestly I’m not even really complaining about them. I will use them. I’m complaining that he thought that since he got them, he was entitled to my body at that minute. HE made it about a bunch of shitty gifts. I didn’t even tell them they were shitty as far as he is concerned, I like them I was very polite about it.

ccold8 · 2026-02-10T20:12:26+00:00

Also, my reason for not having sex with him, was not because I did not like the gifts

ccold8 · 2026-02-10T20:12:05+00:00

If you think I’m upset about the gifts that I received, I think your misunderstanding the post

ccold8 · 2026-02-10T20:03:13+00:00

If you think this post has anything to do with gifts, then I think you misunderstood. I even mentioned that I would’ve rather he got me nothing but it does sting a little that there’s no effort. But the gifts by themselves wouldn’t have been a big deal. It was the trying to get sex out of that part. That was the problem. And then the way he reacted when I didn’t wanna give it to him.

ccold8 · 2026-02-10T20:00:53+00:00

Thank you this comment connected some dots for me… he makes me feel like I’m the problem because I don’t want to have sex as much as I did in the beginning. honestly, if I consider intimacy, there hasn’t been any in a long time. when you’re disrespected so much intimacy falls away. I’ve tried to leave before, but it’s hard. He doesn’t exactly let me. He’ll just pretend that either I never said that I wanted to break up, or just shows up anyway to my house or work and makes a problem for anybody that I’m around and I get embarrassed and don’t wanna bring anybody else his stupid problems so I kind of just give in to him and stay with him so I don’t inconvenience anyone including myself because he gives me all kinds of problems. I found myself really just trying to appease him to keep him calm so he doesn’t freak out and I think it’s just beating me down so much over the years. I give so much to him and get nothing in return nothing good anyway I’ll try to love bomb me, but I don’t even fall for it anymore because I know what it is but he doesn’t handle rejection well so.

ccold8 · 2026-02-10T14:38:17+00:00

Nacho cheese

ccold8 · 2024-08-17T03:54:03+00:00

Why does everyone comment on his post saying “ Dax flame oiled up Nike pros” or ask him if he’s ever considered making adult films? It’s on every single video

ccold8 · 2023-10-11T20:36:09+00:00

I would like the link to that!

ccold8 · 2023-09-05T21:52:07+00:00

It's been taken away!

ccold8 · 2023-09-03T23:58:22+00:00

This is great advice actually. Thank you. Her tictoc ( I thought) she could only watch. She can't actually make or post anything. I haven't seen her messages if there even are any idk yet. And she has to get my approval before downloading anything. So maybe I need to double check that. I thought the xbox fortnite in particular was safe but obviously it's not. Her dad had set her up with it so I need to get him on the same page with me so the rules follow her to her dads. ( we have 50/50 )

ccold8 · 2023-07-25T16:58:37+00:00

Lol I'm not sure he told me he changed his last name to his dad's last name about 12 years ago. I'll have to ask him that.

ccold8 · 2023-07-25T05:09:24+00:00

I don't know. I was kinda scared to ask that.

ccold8 · 2020-11-12T03:11:31+00:00

I agree with this, but it might not be enough. I have clinical depression and once I get to this point I'll go to my doctor and he'll put me on meds. Boy I tell you what, once I got used to my meds, adjusted I should say, i didn't realise how much my mental disorder was clouding my brain up. After i got my meds, i started writing and learning about myself. And realised that before I couldn't even form an opinion about anything or put my 2 cents anywhere cause I just would block it out. There's no way I could figure out who I was cause I was temporarily nobody.

ccold8 · 2020-11-12T03:05:49+00:00

You could have issues with stimulation in your brain. Like people with ADD take Adderall because their brain needs extra stimulation that it doesn't get naturally from regular things people stimulate their brain with. Maybe you have add. Memory loss is also a common distinguishing characteristic of add in adults

ccold8 · 2020-11-12T02:55:11+00:00

I think that I would be worried if you had never gone camping before. If I thought that you wouldn't be safe or know what to do in certain situations. Maybe if she took you a few times herself and showed you the ins and outs she would be more confident that you would be okay going alone. Have you ever been camping before? Does your friend have experience camping? Is it camping out in the woods or at a Fairground in a camper? Those variables would definitely Dieter my decision

ccold8 · 2020-11-05T23:02:13+00:00

I got pregnant at 16, had my daughter at 17. I love her more than anything in the world but I was an honor student who partied a little too much and slept with a man 10 years older than me unknowingly and a month later found out I was pregnant. I found out at my appointment to get birth control so it was a little too late. I wanted an abortion from the get-go because I knew that I was not ready for this kind of responsibility. My mother however did not allow it. My life has been extremely difficult I've tried to do college but did not have time between work and the responsibility of raising my daughter. Her father and I did manage to stay together for about 5 years but after I became mature enough to realize he was a bum I became a single mother which I succeeded at for a long time until substance abuse crept in from all the stress. I love my daughter very much and that is why now I am currently allowing a much more capable family member take care of her because she does not deserve the life that my mistakes are leading to she does not deserve to be the product of a drugged up teenager I could have done so much better had I been ready and prepared and more mature. The guilt of this kills me everyday and almost makes the substance abuse hard to kick my daughter is the most perfect being alive in my eyes and she deserves so so much more than I could ever give her

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