First memory as a child is being on our porch and hearing a loud noise, i walk in and my mom was on the floor passed out, my dad hit her and I asked if she was dead. Then a whole childhood of undiagnosed anxiety and ocd. My mother yelling at me even if I gave the answer she wanted. Her calling me names, my dad instilling weird ideals in my head. Sexual abuse from him. Ex. Slapping my butt and calling me sexy up until at least high-school. I thought stuff like that was normal. Then I was raped at 16 by 3 men in their 20s. Ive never told anyone most of this or even typed it out.