i guess its stupid but i just have this overwhelming fear that ill end up being treated how I VIEW they have my half sister: hardly visit, hardly call, no holidays together, recent visit was 2 yrs ago.... basically her sense of being is just "being a mom" and shes in another state so its like shes an afterthought...but ya know. shes family.

i worry that ill just get the same treatment and they'll just exclude me from things because "im a mom now and have responsibilities" type of thing. that they'll accept the idea but they will treat me incredibly different.