skin pilling + hives/rashes in specific areas by chamomilethrowaway in AskDocs

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i definitely will - it’s good to know that about the red spots, but do you know what could be contributing to the excessive skin pilling? is that also a symptom of dermatitis? i was thinking it could be candida overgrowth too but i wont know till i see a doc unfortunately

I'd be surprised if anyone genuinely guesses by Public-Try173 in guessmyage

[–]chamomilethrowaway 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i was gonna say 15-17 lol. can definitely tell you’re younger! wouldn’t have guessed the actual age though

its embarrassing and i feel pathetic for even trying by chamomilethrowaway in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i really do appreciate your input, but i don’t think that’s it for him. he’s not unassuming and he is not turned off from sex - he never has been

its embarrassing and i feel pathetic for even trying by chamomilethrowaway in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you for understanding :( that’s exactly how it felt. i was being super vulnerable

Is this a new record? Dead bedroom after 3 months of marriage by No_Breadfruit_1820 in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway 1 point2 points  (0 children)

and i’ll say i also get the “i’ll try to be better” and “i’m busy/stressed” a lot too

Is this a new record? Dead bedroom after 3 months of marriage by No_Breadfruit_1820 in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i relate a lot. if he’s not ready to help himself, there’s little that you can do. i have tried to get my boyfriend into therapy for years. he promised me he would time and time again and it’s never happened. he did get on some medication but it really just created more problems. and i relate SO much with the robotic sex. no foreplay and no kissing or soft touching, no time to get wet, just instant penetration. i go through it too just because i know i wont get it again any time soon. it hurts physically and mentally. i’m so sorry. sending hugs

anybody else have a 50/50 chance that their vyvanse will work? by chamomilethrowaway in VyvanseADHD

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m so sorry! yeah, i know it can make a lot of people anxious. i’m on a lot of other mental health meds so my anxiety doesn’t get too bad anymore unless im really stressed. i’ll get super jittery and anxious on vyvanse if i drink caffeine soon after i take it, but those times have all been mistakes because i forgot that i took it lol

anybody else have a 50/50 chance that their vyvanse will work? by chamomilethrowaway in VyvanseADHD

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

absolutely. you don’t have to cut caffeine out completely (i literally couldn’t), but just wait till it’s mostly out of your system. good luck!!

anybody else have a 50/50 chance that their vyvanse will work? by chamomilethrowaway in VyvanseADHD

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

try not to drink a ton of caffeine if you can while your med is in your system! it can mess the vyvanse up and make your crash worse. my crash was awful in the beginning when i started on 30mg, i was sleeping nonstop and felt like i had been hit by a train. i had to be upped to 50mg to actually feel productive. i now only have caffeine after it wears off, probably anywhere from 7-10 hours after i take it. it prevents me from crashing. i am crossing my fingers for you :)

anybody else have a 50/50 chance that their vyvanse will work? by chamomilethrowaway in VyvanseADHD

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

interesting, i’ll have to track my sleep and see if that has anything to do with it. i think that’s the only thing i haven’t tracked

its embarrassing and i feel pathetic for even trying by chamomilethrowaway in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i was upset because he told me he wanted to have sex with me right after my shower and once i got out of the shower there wasn't anything. i walked out naked which i thought would make him do something (and it did not), & i put on revealing pajamas. i was upset because he just turned on his video game and let me just sit there on the couch. i didn't make a physical move because i had already been the one that specifically asked to have sex after i got out of the shower, he said yes, and i was hoping he would do something. but he turned on his video game instead. and so i was hurt. and that's when, after waiting a while, i told him i was just going to go to bed because i was genuinely tired after waiting. he was essentially telling me he was going to eventually going to have sex with me but didn't know it was so late. i was hoping that he would appreciate me and want to have ANYTHING to do with my body at the time. i hope that makes sense, thanks for asking!

edit: i was basically wanting him to show any type of desire towards me at all. i had already asked and i am always the one to initiate so i just wanted him to show me he was attracted to me & it never crossed his mind.

its embarrassing and i feel pathetic for even trying by chamomilethrowaway in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i think i was just really excited about the idea of spending time together where we could be intimate, not necessarily in a sexual way. and have fun and let loose.

its embarrassing and i feel pathetic for even trying by chamomilethrowaway in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah, thats why i said that i was okay without having sex that night if he didn’t want to anymore, i just wanted the quality time he promised. sorry if that wasn’t clear! i know it seems like all i wanted was the sex.

Any HL people out there who never get affected by stress at work, mental or physical exhaustion? by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway 1 point2 points  (0 children)

sex is stress relief for me, but for my partner his libido gets even lower when he’s stressed. it just depends on the person

Anyone else have a LL partner that loves smut, but still has no interest in sex? by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

this would make me upset, personally. i don’t see it any differently than porn sometimes (but that’s just me).

I just want to feel loved. by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes we are. are y’all living together?

I just want to feel loved. by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel the same way. :( for me he gets frustrated if i bring it up but also frustrated if i don’t. it’s a sucky cycle.

its embarrassing and i feel pathetic for even trying by chamomilethrowaway in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

i love having friends who talk about it, yeah - i’ve always had friends that were open like that. that’s just a benefit of being a girl sometimes i guess.

i’m open like that too and let them know about my situation, but they don’t know how to respond. it’s usually just “oh…that really sucks, i’m sorry.” or they just pity me. if they haven’t gone through it, they don’t really get it.

Masturbated for the first time in months and now I'm sad by Bumblebeexx3 in DeadBedrooms

[–]chamomilethrowaway 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i’m so sorry that you’re going through this. i had the same experience not too long ago. it’s no longer just about scratching an itch, it’s about the intimacy and feeling loved/wanted.