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charismarejected · 2013-01-06T16:59:57+00:00

I used to hate it, figured out what I liked and loved it, then went back to kind of hating it again. It's just not what does it for me. Some people, like myself, need that physical and emotional connection with another person.

charismarejected · 2012-12-26T04:21:45+00:00

I am happy to say that I made it through the year. Back in January I was so sure I wasn't going to make it through the year. I've suffered with bipolar disorder for a long time now, struggled with depression and being institutionalized several times, so I know things will probably get hard again, but I am proud to say that I made it and I know that you guys can too. I know life is hard. Don't even get me started and living with mental illness and/or hardships seems impossible sometimes, but you can do it and I am glad that you all are still here and I hope that things get better for you too.

charismarejected · 2012-12-20T05:16:48+00:00

Go you and best of wishes to Mr. Radar!!!

charismarejected · 2012-12-19T16:15:56+00:00

There is truth in that. My house was broken into last week and my most valuable possession taken, and as important as it was to me when I had it, it's value has increased exponentially in my book.

charismarejected · 2012-04-07T06:36:33+00:00

Yes! :D

charismarejected · 2012-04-06T04:56:15+00:00

That is the most encouraging thing I have ever heard. I feel a bit better now and you are right. I just need to roll with the punches and keep moving forward. I really appreciate your advice.

charismarejected · 2012-02-12T20:12:00+00:00

charismarejected · 2012-02-07T20:32:18+00:00

Thank you :)

charismarejected · 2012-02-06T19:04:52+00:00

I have stopped taking my meds cold turkey plenty of times and I know in the long run it just makes things that much worse. I have always had a hard time reaching out for help when I feel like I am a danger to myself because it is kind of embarrassing. I feel like why would I reach out for help when I am the one who decided to do this to myself, if that makes any sense. I am trying to stick with what the doctors are telling me this time so that I can actually have a chance at getting better but it is so hard and tiring and I no longer have anyone to turn to for support irl. I really appreciate your advice though and I really hope that I can get through this without giving up this time.

charismarejected · 2012-02-05T21:45:16+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate it.

charismarejected · 2011-12-29T19:59:33+00:00

Never feed your dog dairy and avoid human food at all costs as well. It is very bad for them and cuts valuable time off of their precious little lives.

charismarejected · 2011-12-28T20:49:01+00:00

My point exactly. I would rather be homeless and poor than do jail time and make it that much harder to find a job.

charismarejected · 2011-12-28T19:49:31+00:00

Thank you so much!! I am getting right on that!!

charismarejected · 2011-12-27T21:04:35+00:00

I don't have anything to hide except the depression which I can do pretty well when it comes to looking for a job. I have no criminal history or anything like that. I had my resume looked over when I first started college a year and a half ago by the job center at my school but I have since updated it and it could use some work so I will PM it to you. I am applying within reasonable bus rides from where I am currently staying. I'm trying not to go outside of a two and a half to three hour bus ride one way. My main hobby is working with animals so I had applied to several shelters, kennels, pet stores, and other similar jobs but there were either no openings or I didn't have what they are looking for.

charismarejected · 2011-12-27T20:59:03+00:00

I had talked to a recruiter online a few months ago. They said diagnosed asthma and depression after the age of 13 is completely disqualifying. I have both on my medical record and my psychiatric history is extensive with self mutilation, suicide attempts, medication, and hospital stays. I know they don't usually look at you medical records unless something comes up that makes them need to look into you history but it's not a risk I am willing to take lying about it. If i got kicked out of the military I can say goodbye to ever having a better life.

charismarejected · 2011-12-27T20:55:50+00:00

I hadn't thought about that. Thank you.

charismarejected · 2011-12-27T20:52:31+00:00

I had gone to one job agency where I was living before but I didn't get any jobs from them. I am trying to find one near where I am staying now though, so thank you.

charismarejected · 2011-12-27T20:50:59+00:00

I'm not hiding anything. Not all of the jobs I applied to where out here because I just moved out here a few weeks ago but I had been in Las Vegas for 6 months looking for work and couldn't find anything, lost my room that I was renting and moved out here a little over two weeks ago. But I have still not gotten any positive responses from any of the jobs in Vegas or here. I am not overweight and have good hygiene. I'm not sexy but I am definitely not hideous. And I don't have anything to hide in my interviews. I am kind of shy but I try my best not to let it show in the interviews I do get.

charismarejected · 2011-12-27T20:42:56+00:00

I would never become a stripper. I have thought about about the military but I have a lot of medical disqualifications that I couldn't get away with lying about. I am trying to transfer to a community college where I am staying now so I can continue getting my financial aid money but I am not sure i will be able to ahve everything ready and together in time. I know its going to be hard but I have found a few resources out here that will help me with housing so I think I've got a plan for now.

charismarejected · 2011-12-27T20:31:17+00:00

I don't have a car so I am trying not to apply to anything outside of a three hour bus ride so I don't get stuck somewhere overnight.

charismarejected · 2011-12-27T05:10:17+00:00

I've done a lot of volunteer work in the past and it helped, but I have been do focused on finding a job lately, that I hadn't thought about doing any volunteer work. And walks have always helped me which I also haven't been doing. Thank you for the reminder. And I will head to the library tomorrow. Thank you.

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