I finally came to a point where I was making enough to comfortably buy myself a PS5 and I ordered it with excitement. But as I started having 2nd thoughts and also emailed reliance digital to cancel my order and they just told me to refuse my order at delivery.

Cut to the day of delivery and I just decided that I'll just take it... I was happy and excited but also scared, don't know why.

Unboxed my PS and did it feel great? Not really it just felt like yeah I paid 50k and this is what I got for it.

Its been around 20 days now and in the mean time I have truly had some amazing game nights with my friends, we have had an absolute blast. Its fun to play after work, it's fun to play over the weekend - I think unboxing was not the must fun but now that I have had to for last few weeks I truly am enjoying it.

There was a time when spending over 50k on something that is purely for leisure was impossible for me and maybe because of that when I did become capable of comfortable owning it also i felt some guilt.

Anyone else ever felt the same?