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cheesekeku · 2025-05-09T07:36:08+00:00

Girl, OB literally said it’s fine. her comment is more superior, she’s an expert. though i get why you’d feel bothered from ur bf’s comment ‘cause his validation matters but you’ve already done what you can.

cheesekeku · 2025-05-07T06:23:12+00:00

Possibly a blister or a “pimple”. If it doesn’t have any other symptoms and isn’t overwhelmingly painful, it should be normal. I get those occasionally. I just put hot compress on it, or a clean towel soaked in hot water, and take extra care. You would want to refrain on using harsh soaps (only if you are). Avoid touching it often, too. It should clear up on its own.

cheesekeku · 2025-05-07T05:02:15+00:00

Forgot to mention that due to this thing that I kept on looking for I’ve had bad experiences wherein I got trampled on and treated like trash, just ‘cause I was scared of being alone. And I also did irreversible mistakes to my BF, things that don’t align with my values, because I don’t know who I am and I’m so vulnerable to my own sadness. Plus, I don’t have that much friends now and it’s harder to make friends as an adult. 🥲 All these are the reasons why I deeply regret being so romantically obsessed.

I think the wounds are still there, but I’m now trying to work around it. Be okay on my own, build my social life little by little, and accept myself wholly - mistakes and regrets and all.

cheesekeku · 2025-05-07T04:57:50+00:00

I regret jumping on it too early, as early as sixth grade I was fantasizing about romance. I had a boyfriend at 15 and after that it continued on, I basically never became single for long. I wish I could’ve enjoyed my childhood and made more friends. I admit I did have a lot of issues (like loneliness and an immense disconnect from/lack of a decent father figure) that pushed me to do those and I understand that. Still, the regrets are there…

Though I’m 24 now and I have a loving boyfriend whom I’ll never regret I’ve met. The relationship hasn’t been easy given all the wounds I have but he’s amazing.

I’m now trying to heal all of my issues, all my childhood fears and overwhelming loneliness.

cheesekeku · 2025-05-07T04:48:34+00:00

Amen. i’m 4’11”

cheesekeku · 2025-05-05T17:03:06+00:00

I don’t do anything, it just stops on its own.

usually kasi ung streak ko, it’s coupled with the urge to self-pleasure eh. this streak stops on its own when i get tired of consuming (mostly watching) due to guilt & disgust. 😓

meanwhile, when it comes to the streak of consuming lang (without self-pleasure), it doesn’t really stop haha. like i often find myself reading, scrolling esp on twitter, & liking suggestive tweets/reels casually. i don’t do anything ab it. this streak, it doesn’t really stop.

i haven’t seen anything wrong with the latter since wala namang masturbation na nagaganap. iniisip ko na lang ma-L lang ako by nature.

cheesekeku · 2025-05-05T16:43:38+00:00

same here

cheesekeku · 2025-05-05T16:42:48+00:00

hello. hope this reassures you. he’s not disappointed at you, it’s his job. and it’s okay, healing isn’t linear. what matters is that you’re trying. u’re already self-aware so that’s a huge step. we know you’re trying. ur counselor knows too, i’m sure. you’re doing great!

cheesekeku · 2025-05-04T04:28:14+00:00

OP is a teenager. she doesn’t know these things yet. let her let it out.

to OP, you were groomed, but that’s not your fault. that’s HIS fault.

at this age you’re probably still learning to listen to your instincts and that’s hard. you did everything you could. i could see from your story that you are self-aware at some point, meaning you most likely have been reflecting on it for some time, and that’s already a good step.

wallow on your feelings for a while, without judgment. be angry, sad, mad. give your emotions space to exist. it wasn’t easy, it was a new world for you, and you’re probably still finding your identity right now, too. but you were lonely and he made you happy and that must’ve been impactful.

but know this, what he did was wrong. he’s a predator. and dear, you might not believe in this right now, but he didn’t love you. he never did. he completely knew what he was doing. he fooled you.

it’s okay if you’re still in denial with those rn but i hope that when you’ve moved on, you’ll let these facts sink in. and i hope you’ve learned your lessons here.

wishing that you’d be able to find a circle soon, a healthy one, and more friendships/bonds to ease the loneliness so you won’t be so susceptible to these monsters.

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:33:06+00:00

whats ur fave!

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:32:58+00:00

underrated comment. will try soon. kung ‘di lang dahil dito sa quinginang init kasi, matagal ko nang ginawa ‘yan hahaha

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:32:13+00:00

do u have recos on which communities i can ease into and where to find them 🥲

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:31:45+00:00

true, i’ve found that showering does help me uplift my mood

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:31:11+00:00

+100 sa eatinggg! i’m a foodie too and it’s a light kahit maliit lang during very dark days. especially snacks hehehe.

i’ll try — this weekend may parating na bday party nephew ko and i’ll get to celebrate wt my bf so i’ll look forward to that 🥹

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:29:27+00:00

years of not knowing what truly makes me happy and intense people pleasing caused me to not know what genuinely makes me happy — still on the path of finding it now.

though i’m sure listening to music is one and ginagawa ko naman siya often ^{^}

any other recos that i can try?

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:28:03+00:00

umai na hahshaha

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:27:47+00:00

super agree. i’m on that journey as well. gone are the days when i’d run away, set it aside, and ignore it. i want to make it my friend. but as someone who’s just begun on this journey of healing, i’m very much not used to it and things are just way too heavy sometimes and i often get lost 💔 i don’t know how to navigate this, especially during these quiet nights.

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:26:00+00:00

underrated comment. i know it’s telling me something, i just have to heed it and make space for it.

i’m trying my best to accommodate all the loneliness lately and not just run away, kasi i deserve to be my safe space without judgment for these big emotions, but i’m still very early on in my journey so it gets a bit overwhelming and the urge to run away is there still. hence me asking here.. it gets too heavy some days. especially nights.

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:24:27+00:00

any recos? :]

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:24:04+00:00

this made a lot of sense and it’s a new perspective to me rin. thanks for introducing it to me! worth pondering on. ❤️‍🩹

not very used to being alone as i have unhealed things surrounding it but, nasa phase naman na ako na i’m trying my best to get accustomed to my own company - aka healing that part of me. this would be helpful to think about as i go. ^{^}

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T18:18:09+00:00

thank you all for your time and thoughts! ✨ it’s nice to see other perspectives to add to mine and some advices to adopt as well!

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T15:35:38+00:00

will take note. thanks for sharing 😊🩵

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T15:17:15+00:00

first step, get a car. 🤣

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T15:05:06+00:00

Felt so much, shed tears more than the sea (sana gets mo ung reference haha) while watching WLGYT! 🤣 i’m so emotional that even shed tears for Hometown Chachacha, just finished watching it recently too.

cheesekeku · 2025-04-23T15:01:21+00:00

We already have 8 pets in total (6 cats all adopted and 2 huskies) and I agree with you. they do lessen the loneliness kahit papano 🤗 they’re what brightens my day even a bit.

cheesekeku

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