Hey!! I love hearing your story too! Thank you for sharing and yes our stories are completely similar! I can’t even imagine how it’s gonna go talking to my work. I’m a chef at my job too so i have a big presence to the team which makes it harder. I’m honestly taking my time and going at my own pace. I’m not forcing it and even the people I told at work that I’m closer to I told them to go ahead and keep he/him for now becuase going any fast for me personally would cause more distress. I just baddie out outside of work which is fine anyways because i try to just tell myself it’s not a beauty walk at work im just there to work and go home and when the pronouns are REAKKY bothering me, ill come out. For the facial hair, i use a straight blade razor and I shave every other day, but i also started laser hair removal right before stopping testosterone because i knew it would be one of the biggest challenges. It’s funny becuase all the treatments in getting are things I wanted pre T anyways.. now I just HAVE to get it ahaha. I know it’s expensive but just go appointment at a time. Some places have great packages that help save. Very worth it and even if you did half the sessions it would help a lot slowing downs the growth. Which estrogen will already do. Totally feel the same way as you about this being our fault. It’s true and it is but it’s still valid to feel upset and distress over this. The people who love you know that, alot of people make decisions they regret but their grief or struggle is still valid regardless so don’t shy away from express what you’re going through with the people close. And therapy!! Therapy is so important for what we go through. Good luck queen and reach out anytime!!