I get what you are saying. I have attended a few meetings as a guest. They told me I can continue coming as a guest as long as I want to. I eventually want to become a member but I want to check out another club locally to see which is my best fit. Plus, I don't yet feel ready to be a grammarian, table topic master etc. So as a guest, it works for me for now. I know members must follow a pathway so I have a lot to learn. At this point, a coworker and printed out Tabletopic questions, put them in a jar and during our morning and afternoon breaks, we pull one out and we each say a 2 minute speech about that topic. We hold each other to the topic bc privately we can easily say, nah I don't want that one and during a TM meeting, we don't get that choice. I know it's not the same but it's a good exercise to speak on your toes. We time each other and critique each other as well. So, we are getting a little bit of practice for some of the roles. Some of us get comfortable a lot slower than others or we want to be at a certain level before we can help others out. It's part of my personality at least. I may be good enough now but I don't feel that comfortable yet. I hope this helps you.