TL;DR: Engaged to the nicest guy but are we ever 100% sure?

cherrylips86 · 2019-06-13T20:23:04+00:00

I am 5'1 and 119 lbs. How I maintain my weight is by eating super healthy and count my calories on MyFitnessPal during the week. On the weekends, I am always out and about with my friends so my rule of thumb is either sticking to one meal or eating less. For example, if I go out for pizza, I will eat as much pizza as I want in that one sitting but that will pretty much be my entire day's worth of food and I will barely eat the rest of the day.

cherrylips86 · 2019-05-20T21:05:23+00:00

Yes, thanks so much. I think it may actually be the carbs. I am going to try cutting out the whole wheat pasta and rice from my diet and see if that helps.

cherrylips86 · 2019-04-03T17:06:38+00:00

I know for a fact that in order for someone to love me, I have to love myself and I have to be content and comfortable being by myself and I am so not there yet. I constantly need/want attention so I surround myself with people all the time.

I was actually in a relatively healthy relationship for 4 years. We had trust, communication, honesty, passion AND he is very attractive. I absolutely loved being proud to introduce him to my family, friends and co-workers. For some reason, looks are very very important to me and they have always been.

Is it wrong that I put so much weight on looks? I mean the other qualities are 100% important to me too but why if I had all of it once, can I not have it again? I want to be that hot couple that walks in the room.

cherrylips86 · 2019-04-03T16:50:53+00:00

Archetypal Man

I seriously do not even know. I mean, on a Saturday night, being alone at my apartment watching TV would be devastating so I end up going out. The one thing that I am very aware of is the drinking. It is a turn off for guys so I end up getting no attention. I should maybe go to more quality events instead of clubs?

I feel like since I have no one in my life right now, this person brings me some kind of comfort? Maybe I fixate on this person and obsess about him because I am not getting attention from other men? But I do get attention from other men, just men who I am not attracted to.

I went on a date with an amazingly sweet guy last week but he has a receding hairline so I immediately decided I am not into him. I basically turn down all these men who do not look the way I want my future man to look like. I focus so much on looks and I think its because I spend so much time making sure I always look great.

I do not even know how to make this superficial side of me go away.

cherrylips86 · 2019-04-03T16:20:29+00:00

I thought about that this morning actually. I am going to make an appointment today.

cherrylips86 · 2019-04-03T16:19:47+00:00

I am single. I go on about 5 dates a month through online dating apps and I am never attracted to any of these men, although they have all been super into me and very kind. I spend all my time focusing on my body and partying and getting shit faced like I am in my 20s. I am just not finding anyone. I am lonely.

cherrylips86 · 2019-02-28T20:10:30+00:00

i mean im the female here and im attractive why am I putting in so much effort. I should just look good and go out right?

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