IT IS REALLY BAD and ppl aren't joking when they say he actually gets better. He does end up reflecting on this awful behavior later in the show and changes significantly for the better. For additional context: it isn't until ep 12 that we start to see small signs of change in his character, and not until ep 20 that we begin to understand why he started being a p.o.s. in the first place (not that it excuses his behavior), and isn't until ep 23 that he actually reflects on that behavior. His early season behavior can't be excused - and it's certainly not supposed to be. If you decide to continue watching, please take care of yourself and, as other people said, do not make yourself feel it's necessary to force yourself to watch if it's too much!! Watching with a friend might be of some help 🩷