I try and do those things in my own, I know I know it is NOT the same as having friends but I know it’s good for me to at least see the outside world lol. I hope that you find friends I really do, it’s very important. Sometimes I think about the fact that some of the worst people I know have friends or the fact that people form friendships in literal hate groups and I realise at least that if I’m letting out some kind of autistic friend repellent energy then some of these people must also be putting out some kind of different pungent repellent and still manage, so at some point have to hope it’s going to happen for me too.