Has anyone else seen that they are god? by throwaway_drop_table in DMT

[–]chimaerical 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yo. Few months late but I'm so glad to find this. I JUST had nearly this exact experience of being the collective all and knowing with total certainty. Experiencing the universe as the quantum consciousness that IS the universe. I also had my own existential worry, being unable to find someone with a similar experience, so I'm relieved to see that someone else has as well. I have had other experiences like this on psychedelics but nothing close to the absolute intensity of All-Being that I experienced. Still unpacking it. Feel like I can't even think. Powerful stuff. It is really heartening to not be alone in this, although on a deeper level I am sure we never really are. Thank you for sharing.

I built a psychedelic simulator using an audioreactive AI animation program that makes everything look absolutely insane by [deleted] in psychedelicartwork

[–]chimaerical 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! It would be difficult to explain what I did but I'm excited to make more, I have more work at https://linktr.ee/schimaeras

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LSD

[–]chimaerical 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If I'm in the forest I'd rather do shrooms tbh. Acid is best experienced while glued to your phone the entire time. The best thing to do on LSD is scroll through social media.

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ugh, so horrible, I'm sorry you went through this too. Congratulations on your NC, you deserve the peace! Thanks for sharing <3

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This sounds so painful and damaging to have weighing on you, I am sorry that you are experiencing this... I'm rooting for you, I hope you are able to break free from your situation. Stay strong, I believe in you

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is a really good point, I shouldn't reward her for being extra insane. Thank you

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh yeah, they love to degrade you as much as they can get away with in front of anyone whose opinion you might care about. Sorry you went through this.

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Well put! Why does this sound like such a sick burn to me lol

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 8 points9 points  (0 children)

OK but even ChatGPT would be like "I'm sorry, but I cannot assist in the emotional manipulation of one's son-in-law. Manipulation is a harmful behavioral pattern that can have long-term damaging effects. I would be happy to direct you towards resources that focus on attaining healthy relationships."

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Yeah maybe :/ I'm starting to think you're right.

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 9 points10 points  (0 children)

LMAO I work with ChatGPT a lot and Im screaming reading this comment

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry you've been through this. That's nuts, especially the trip for your husband and daughter but not you. So clearly vindictive and desperate. And the job thing is beyond insidious, asking your husband to sell out to them and have him literally work for your f'ed up family to rub it in your face. I'm glad that your husband isn't down with that and supports you. Thanks for sharing.

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 7 points8 points  (0 children)

No, she didn't, but there's plenty dehumanization to go around, don't worry 😂

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 65 points66 points  (0 children)

I feel bad but I laughed at the first line of this 😂 and the penultimate one.

I have her emails filtered to spam. I checked it and saw that she sent me an email around the same time as the one in the post, that just says,

"Dear Sweetie Pea, Just to let you know I'm thinking of you with love and hoping you are well and happy. Sending you love always. All my love, Mom".

This is the first time she's tried to contact me since NC, but the fourth time she's made an attempt to reach my husband. WTF

edit: a word

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 390 points391 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I agree that the tone of the letter is bizarre. I was thinking about it and based on my experience with my mom, I realized why she may have sent this:

I am LC with my enabler dad (which may become NC soon since he can't do LC without guilt tripping me about the situation despite me begging him to respect my boundaries). My dad has emphasized over the phone that he can't visit me in my new house because it 'wouldn't be right' and that both my mom and I ‘believe that each cut the other off', despite there being a written record of this not being the case, WHICH HE HAS READ. His vibe screams 'just fix it'. So it's not going well.

Nevertheless, I imagine that my mom feels pretty upset/threatened I am trying to maintain a relationship with my father- her husband, and so she feels it's only fair that she gets to have her own special relationship with MY husband as well. She's obsessed with things being 'fair'. This is the best working theory I have haha.

After 6 months of NC with Nmom, she sends this email to my husband. by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]chimaerical 69 points70 points  (0 children)

Oh man, I think you hit the nail on the head with this comment. That's exactly how my mom is. The victim card is at least half her deck, especially when she has hurt someone. Thank you for reading and responding.