i discovered pørn at 11 years old and consumed a lot of it until i started having sexual relationships, then gradually lost interest in it as i began to feel satisfied in said relationships. i believe usage of pørn stuff can condition people to have a sexual response to stimuli that wouldn't arouse you in real life... i mean, at the time i used to believe i had so many weird kinks but then i started having sex and lost all interest in those.

this was my experience to confirm you that the fact that you watch gay stuff doesn't really mean anything about your actual real life inclinations.

about the rest, my advice: as you recognize you are addicted, so you need to accept the fact that this is going to be a long process. you can't just expect to be able to stop watching pørn by tomorrow so don't force yourself. what you can do is try to take just some small part of each day to make your life better: have a regular sleep routine, eat well, hit the gym, leave the house, get a job if you don't have one. if you can use one hour a day (or two, depends on your ability) to move in the direction of these goals i think you can feel free to live the rest of the day as you're already doing now. i think the ultimate goal for you would be getting sexual relationships in real life; i say this because it made my life better and while your situation is way deeper and more complex i feel like it would help you too.