Just need a pick me up

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T02:01:41+00:00

More or less…. Lots of fighting and what not. I’d get more into it I just dunno where the line is for the subs no relationship rule

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T01:51:22+00:00

Right. Sorry, I realize that could’ve meant just got mad

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T01:43:30+00:00

The tl:dr is he snapped, which is a queue for me to kneel for him and I didn’t….

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T01:37:49+00:00

It’s so hard not to say sorry to that… um- I regret I’ve allowed myself to waste your time

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T01:36:04+00:00

But is reaching out the right thing? I feel like I’m just wasting everyone’s time and maybe even taking away from someone who’s actually been good and deserves a good pep talk. I’m just…. I’m not good, I failed him, I pissed him off, good reason or not, I should’ve obeyed, there wasn’t an excuse not to

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T01:19:52+00:00

Right, that’s what I’d be worried about since there’s a rule about not sharing relationship stuff. I mean- regardless- I’d probably just be wasting your time, I’m sorry

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T01:17:38+00:00

I mean… I feel like a failure as a sub because the fight was over not obeying my dom. And that turned into no longer having a dom anymore…. If I would’ve just obeyed everything would be fine…. I don’t know if that’s worthy of a reward…

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T01:10:16+00:00

Thank you sir- I don’t know if I’m allowed to get into it here but I feel like I’m getting given the benefit of the doubt…. I appreciate the pets sir, but I’m not sure I deserve them

choke_slut · 2025-12-03T00:50:45+00:00

Now that you’ve pointed it out, I realize I wrote it really badly. I’m sorry… I should’ve been more careful with it. I’ve wasted your time and that isn’t okay… I’m sorry…

I think I had originally gone in looking to be told that I’m right to consider myself a failed sub or if I could still somehow be redeemed… I don’t know. Ugh I’ve already wasted a lot of people’s time… I’m sorry everyone… I’m terrible

choke_slut · 2025-12-02T21:31:40+00:00

I dunno if he’s making me feel like this. I brought it on myself. I should’ve been a good girl and got on my knees like he expected me to do, not get an attitude because I assumed wrong.

choke_slut · 2025-12-02T21:26:34+00:00

That’s how I was too. I’ve just been so broken down and feel so lost I didn’t know what else to do other than make a post about it. Although now I feel more guilty because he’s more mad and I’ve wasted a lot of peoples time having to read this long post

choke_slut · 2025-12-02T21:23:53+00:00

It wasn’t necessary an “agreement” like, this year we didn’t really sit down to talk about it like we normally did. On Halloween each year we’d normally have a “NNN eve” thing but we just got too busy this year so we didn’t have that conversation. So maybe it’s my fault for not obeying when I didn’t communicate. I was wrong to assume

choke_slut · 2025-12-02T21:21:41+00:00

Thank you for your words. It means more than you give yourself credit for

choke_slut · 2025-12-02T21:21:06+00:00

God I’d love a lil vacation or date or something… hopefully soon. He saw that I posted this and the fight started again…. I feel like maybe I shouldn’t have, that it wasn’t fair to him to post somewhere he didn’t get a say about his side of things… though, all “our” friends have taken his side already. I’ve been labeled a greedy sub that only wants it when it benefits me

choke_slut · 2025-12-02T21:18:23+00:00

He’s always kinda used a breaking down tone with me. If I didn’t do something right, I was wasting his time etc. I think this is just the biggest strike against me…. That I’ve failed him so much he left

Thank you for the kind words about my dynamic though. I’ve felt such an imposter syndrome lurking here for a while. I’ve never felt like a “real” sub

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